Still no luck with the dating site

[Hungry4love357]

I'm getting really discouraged.  No body has contacted me on the dating site.  Maybe this is not the right way to go.  I don't know.  I would really like to meet some new friends.  I've tried bars, church, swing dancing, the beach, going out to different places and events.  I'm just too socially awkward I guess.  My introverted nature is hard to reprogram.  Especially when the effort seems one sided.  I've prayed, for friends, I have tried to get out of my head about not finding them.  I would feel more comfortable in church and elsewhere with good loyal and true friends.  But it's not happening.  I feel more lonesome and rejected than ever before, and it's starting to make me crazy.  Please pray God either via the dating app, or elsewhere, (maybe at church tomorrow) will give me a friend.  Hopefully a girl friend so I can practice my social skills with women.  I don't know.  I feel like a freak from the island of misfit toys.  I'm an emotional mess.  I've been an emotional mess for the past three days.  My panic attacks are coming back.  My nerve are shot.  I just need some kind of breakthrough her, or I'm gonna go insane.  I an extra does of my anti-depresent meds this mourning because I was so upset.  My parents could not console me.  It's been a nightmare emotional roller coaster.  I don't understand why this is so hard for me.  I feel like everything I do is like an uphill battle.  And the worst part is no one seems to get it.  No one seems to see how hard it is for me to process things.  How hard it is for me to just hold a simple conversation.  I wish just once I could meet a Lady friend who gets it, and wants to be my friend back and wants to help me become better.  But once more, I'm on my own.  People keep telling me to just read my Bible and pray more.   I can't focus on the Bible for more than a second.  I just can't seem to concentrait or focus.  I've tried doing it with audio Bibles, and that helped but still I feel like I have to force myself to do it.  Because I get distracted so easily. It's like I'm a kid and I'm trying to eat broccoli.  I know. It's good for me but it taste yucky.  I wish I could just reprogram my brain to not think about my short comings, and everything around me, and just focus on God and my Bible, but it's hard.   Especially since I want a wife so bad.  It's frustrating and hard for me to understand that the same God who created marriage, and said it's not good for man to be alone, and made a helpmate so man would not be alone,  has not given me a wife, or any kind of female companionship.  It's upsetting.  It makes me want to cry.  Will this ever end?  Will God ever give me a wife, or even just a female companion to be close friends with?  These are anxietys I battle with constantly, and waiting like this does not help.  I wish I didn't desire a wife.  I really do.  I would be so much more productive and happy.  But God won't even take the desire for a wife away.  I have asked Him many times to do so, and the desire is stronger than ever.  The constant temptations I face to giving up my virginity.  All I have to do is sign onto a casual hook up site and I could have a girl come strait to my door to sleep with me and take it from me.  It's that simple.  I could do that right now.  But I'm not going to.  But it sounds more and more inticing because I'm not getting my sexual desires met either.  I'm just being down to earth honest here.  This is my mind, this is what goes on in my head every day.  I am consistently bombarded by peers who have already given up their virginity, and news about increasing divorce rates, and other factors, and it's scary.  This is not where I wanted to be in my life right now.  I feel helpless.  I have given up hope that She is out there.  Why is this so difficult for me?  

 

[Anonymous]

You do NOT sound socially awkward to me , you seem to have a good sense of humor , maybe you are trying TOO hard to impress a girl instead of just being yourself . I hear where you are coming from when you say it is hard to focus on reading God's word but you need to know that that is a tactic from satan , please keeping reading your bible because you may not realize it but you are still putting the word of God into your heart and that is so very important . It is easier said than done but you need to be patient , God knows your needs and he cares about every detail in your life , just trust that he is preparing you the wife of his choice and he is working in her life as we speak . She is probably asking the very same questions to God as you are . I know that you are sick and tired of hearing it , but it is ALL in his timing . Wait upon the Lord , you will NEVER be sorry you did !

 

[Hungry4love357]

You do NOT sound socially awkward to me , you seem to have a good sense of humor , maybe you are trying TOO hard to impress a girl instead of just being yourself . I hear where you are coming from when you say it is hard to focus on reading God's word but you need to know that that is a tactic from satan , please keeping reading your bible because you may not realize it but you are still putting the word of God into your heart and that is so very important . It is easier said than done but you need to be patient , God knows your needs and he cares about every detail in your life , just trust that he is preparing you the wife of his choice and he is working in her life as we speak . She is probably asking the very same questions to God as you are . I know that you are sick and tired of hearing it , but it is ALL in his timing . Wait upon the Lord , you will NEVER be sorry you did !

Believe me, I sound better in writing that In real life.  I have time to think before I speak when I write.  I can organize my thoughts.  But holding a vocal conversation, especially with strangers is a chore... Anyways Thanks for the uplift.  I wish there were more people like you here that took the time to actually read what people write and respond with loving answer.  Some people here get mad and say mean things to me because they think I'm throwing a pitty party, when all I'm really doing is venting frustration.  I know I can get dark sometimes, but who It's just my feeling talking.  But thanks for your encouragment.  It did lift my spirit a bit.   :blush:

 

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