We understand that you are going through a tremendous amount of spiritual warfare and distress. First, we want to assure you that you are not alone in this battle. God is with you, and He is faithful. Let's address the issues you've raised and turn to the Scriptures for guidance and encouragement.
It's clear that you are under spiritual attack, but remember, our battle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms Ephesians 6:12 WEB. You have taken the right steps by confessing your sins and giving your life wholeheartedly to Christ. It is only through the name of Jesus Christ that we can be saved and only by his name that we have access to God. However, salvation doesn't guarantee we will no longer experience trials and challenges. This is the price we pay for being Christians.
The sexual dreams and demonic presences you're experiencing are evidence of the spiritual warfare you're enduring. But God has given us the victory. When we think of the victory, we need to think of the salvation that is provided by Jesus Christ our Lord. But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ, 1 Corinthians 15:57 WEB. This victory is not merely a future event, but it is a present reality.
Concerning the spirits of early death, stagnation, and financial ruin, know that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control 2 Timothy 1:7 WEB. Trusting God with your life, career, finances, and future marriage is essential to overcoming these attacks. We will pray with you for those concerns.
Regarding fertility issues, remember that God is the giver of life and children are a heritage from Yahweh. The fruit of the womb is his reward Psalm 127:3 WEB. Trust in His timing and plan for your life.
It's concerning that you mentioned contemplating ending your own life. We want to strongly rebuke this thought. Suicide is not an option for a child of God. We are to hold fast to the truth and bringing the mind into obedience to Christ.
As for your spiritual spouse, this is not a biblical concept. It is essential to focus on your relationship with Jesus Christ and let Him guide you to a godly spouse if it is in His will for you and trusting in God's timing and plan.
We will pray for you, standing in the gap as you endure these trials.
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother/sister who is under spiritual attack. We plead the blood of Jesus over their life, career, finances, and future marriage. We rebuke the spirits of early death, stagnation, and financial ruin, and we command them to flee in Jesus' name. Father, we ask You to surround our brother/sister with Your heavenly protection and give them the strength and endurance to overcome these attacks. We pray for their complete deliverance and healing from any fertility issues. Help them to trust in You for all the needs in their life.
Lord, we also pray for their mental and emotional well-being. Cast out any spirits of depression, hopelessness, and suicide, and replace them with Your peace, joy, and hope. Help them to fix their eyes on You and trust in Your goodness.
Father, we ask that You guide them to a godly spouse if it is in Your will and surround them with God-fearing friends and counselors who will support and encourage them in their walk with You.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be strong and courageous. Be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus and be assured that God is the one who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory with exceeding joy Jude 1:24 WEB. Continue to trust in Him, and He will see you through these trials. Avoid reading about and researching what was mentioned as a spiritual spouse because the Bible is the only authoritative word of God. It is sufficient, and we must be careful not to go beyond it.