Kalolos
Disciple of Prayer
Sometimes it feels like prayer is not enough, I don't know anymore something is going on. It feel like something is out to get me. What have I done so wrong. Wasn't I good, did I do someone wrong, then I appologise but please this is breaking me I can't go on like this. Is as if everything is going great and then somebody says something to Espere and all my hope and prays were for nothing. I don't know what to do anymore I don't ask for a lot I am always satisfied I always try to do my best but when it comes to me and my need it just doesn't seem to matter. All I ask for is for me and Espere to get back together and forget the past things that made that our relationship ended here. But it feels like nothing I do is good enough. Lord if I did something wrong I am sorry, but please don't punish me like this You know how i feel and how much more I can take and it really feels like I have reached my limed. Lord I don't want to give up for You put Espere on my path, and that I believe out my heart, but please wake him up and show him how much I love him for it doesn't matter what I say or do sometimes it looks like he believes me and then the next everything changes. I don't know if he the same as You are putting me through a test, what lesson I need to learn I don't know as yet. But please Lord please open his eyes and show him how much I love him and how much he still loves me and that we can still save our relationship.I ask all this in Your Name Amen