Namelesservant
Humble Servant of All
Something really odd and unexpected happened today. The woman, who ghosted about a year ago suddenly appeared on my doorstep. She just wanted to say hi and to speak. I had not much to say and told her that I don't hold a grudge. Things went as they went. I also said I was sprry for my own behavior. I did not ask her in and chatted whit her for a while. She tried to start a convesation on several topics... She seemed uncertain but visibily happy of seeing me. She clearly would have liked to chat more and spend time whit me. For now I just chatted for a while and kept most of my thougths to myself. I have learned it's sometimes better to tell less than one observes.
Anyway seeing her made me float and feel instantly happy. I smiled and my eyes brigthened when seeing her. Just chatting whit her made me feel comfortable and good. Again despite of her actions towards me.
I did not say to her straigth but between the lines I gave her an impression that she is welcome tp my life but not as mere friend anymore. I made no move to ask her in or to keep contact. If she really want's me to be part of her life she will contact me again. Now this is on hands of God and ball is on her end.
Will I see her again. Perhaps, perhaps not. That is up to God. But I won't make any moves from ly part letting this whole matter to rest in the hands of the Lord.
Lord Father I know you know this whole matter troughoutly and I give it up to you. If it is good in your eyes and according to your will then lead me into marriage whit her. If not then let my emotions for her fade. If you lead us together then grow me to be a husbamd after your own heart God. You know my heart in this matter. If it allings whit your will thendo your miracles here. If not then steer me back to your way and will in this matter Lord. In Jesus name I pray, amen.
Anyway seeing her made me float and feel instantly happy. I smiled and my eyes brigthened when seeing her. Just chatting whit her made me feel comfortable and good. Again despite of her actions towards me.
I did not say to her straigth but between the lines I gave her an impression that she is welcome tp my life but not as mere friend anymore. I made no move to ask her in or to keep contact. If she really want's me to be part of her life she will contact me again. Now this is on hands of God and ball is on her end.
Will I see her again. Perhaps, perhaps not. That is up to God. But I won't make any moves from ly part letting this whole matter to rest in the hands of the Lord.
Lord Father I know you know this whole matter troughoutly and I give it up to you. If it is good in your eyes and according to your will then lead me into marriage whit her. If not then let my emotions for her fade. If you lead us together then grow me to be a husbamd after your own heart God. You know my heart in this matter. If it allings whit your will thendo your miracles here. If not then steer me back to your way and will in this matter Lord. In Jesus name I pray, amen.