So I've been going through a rough time in my life,

[Johnsstarry sky]

So I've been going through a rough time in my life, besides feeling like I havent even started to live my life and yet I'm 49 almost done with it. I'm empty, I'm bitter, I'm angry and I'm lost, I feel sick about my life and never amounting to anything, I go to bed every night worries and thinking of what will happen to me if my partner should pass and leave me all alone, no money, no bank accounts, no savings nothing, all my life its been barely making ends meet. For ten long years now I've lived with the anger and the torment of doing things wrong by moving to this city of hell where I live, I gave up my beautiful home, a great job and so many memories that I could of made with family but now I cant as they are all passed away. Here I sit unemployed once again, no friends in this hell city, my partner has cancer and COPD, I take care of mom who has parkinsons very very bad and I cant take it much longer with taking care of her, I have two wonderful four legged Angels but they are ageing and have health problems I worry about. I'm so angry very very very angry lately and pills dont help!!!! I told my Mom yesterday that I think I'm so angry because I'm sick of this world, sick of myself and that I think I no longer have a soul even though I pray and thank God everyday and night. I dont hold God responsible for the lack of wisdom and luck in my life, I'm a arrogant, stupid humanbeing that should leave this life and give room to someone whos worthy of living!!! My life is almost over and yet I feel like it never began, I havent done anything I wanted to do in life, never had the money never had the luck. One moment in my life I felt like God had answered all my prayers and then I threw them all away to move to hell on earth thinking it would be so much better. I just want God to call me home, so I can finally have peace, peace and no worries and no fears, I cant take it anymore, i just cant take it!!! In 19 years I've lost my grandmother, my four legged Son, two beautiful Fourlegged daughters, My Mother inlaw, my Fatherinlaw, A four legged brother, and my Father. My partner has prostate cancer, Copd, my Mother has Parkinsons and Dementia, my most recent four legged kids my Angels Copius and Kelly have also had their share of health problems such as Mass cell tumors. No one likes me in life no more, mostly in this horrible city, no job, no luck, no happiness. I just give up, I'm done and I just want to go home to those who left me behind.

 

[JesusIsMyOnlyHope]

O God, our heavenly Father, who loves mankind and is infinitely merciful and compassionate, have mercy upon your servants for whom I humbly pray to you, and commend to your gracious care and protection. Be their guide and guardian in all their endeavors, lead them in the path of your truth, and draw them nearer to you, that they may lead a godly and righteous life in your love and fear; doing your will in all things. Give them grace that they may be temperate, industrious, diligent, devout and charitable. Defend them against the assaults of the enemy, and grant them wisdom and strength to resist all temptation and corruption of this life; and direct them in the way of salvation, through the merits of your Son, our Savior Jesus Christ, I pray, Amen

 

[Monina]

Dear God, please listen and have mercy on this your believer who have lost all hope but still has faith in you. She has cried out to you because she knows only you can help her. Please bring her relief and salvation. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen. 

 

[comrade]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[JAYANJACOB]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Eric49]

I have prayed for you in the name of Jesus.

 

[hadassah]

So I've been going through a rough time in my life, besides feeling like I havent even started to live my life and yet I'm 49 almost done with it. I'm empty, I'm bitter, I'm angry and I'm lost, I feel sick about my life and never amounting to anything, I go to bed every night worries and thinking of what will happen to me if my partner should pass and leave me all alone, no money, no bank accounts, no savings nothing, all my life its been barely making ends meet. For ten long years now I've lived with the anger and the torment of doing things wrong by moving to this city of hell where I live, I gave up my beautiful home, a great job and so many memories that I could of made with family but now I cant as they are all passed away. Here I sit unemployed once again, no friends in this hell city, my partner has cancer and COPD, I take care of mom who has parkinsons very very bad and I cant take it much longer with taking care of her, I have two wonderful four legged Angels but they are ageing and have health problems I worry about. I'm so angry very very very angry lately and pills dont help!!!! I told my Mom yesterday that I think I'm so angry because I'm sick of this world, sick of myself and that I think I no longer have a soul even though I pray and thank God everyday and night. I dont hold God responsible for the lack of wisdom and luck in my life, I'm a arrogant, stupid humanbeing that should leave this life and give room to someone whos worthy of living!!! My life is almost over and yet I feel like it never began, I havent done anything I wanted to do in life, never had the money never had the luck. One moment in my life I felt like God had answered all my prayers and then I threw them all away to move to hell on earth thinking it would be so much better. I just want God to call me home, so I can finally have peace, peace and no worries and no fears, I cant take it anymore, i just cant take it!!! In 19 years I've lost my grandmother, my four legged Son, two beautiful Fourlegged daughters, My Mother inlaw, my Fatherinlaw, A four legged brother, and my Father. My partner has prostate cancer, Copd, my Mother has Parkinsons and Dementia, my most recent four legged kids my Angels Copius and Kelly have also had their share of health problems such as Mass cell tumors. No one likes me in life no more, mostly in this horrible city, no job, no luck, no happiness. I just give up, I'm done and I just want to go home to those who left me behind.

Father, I thank you for grace for John and I appeal to your mercy to show him truth. All these things that he has spoken were spoken from a place of "hell" where satan has been having a hey day with him with delusions, lies, deceptions, misery, and he's lived with so many lies, he doesn't even know the truth. 
I pray that You, Lord, would give him the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Christ Jesus, that his eyes would be flooded with light to the glorious gospel of good tidings of great joy. That light would shine in all those dark places and that he would begin to see that his whole life was lived in a lie, sort of like "The Truman Show."  He thinks he's living reality, but reality is simply the place of hell, and freedom comes from knowing truth. 

I ask You, Lord, to "Father" John, to reveal his true nature, his true character, his true identity that is found in Jesus Christ. There is no other way to God, but through Jesus, in Jesus name. Amen.

You are right, your life has not even yet begun. You've been existing, not living. Today is a new day, a new beginning, today is the day of salvation, and I encourage you to choose life. See, no one can convince you to turn to Jesus, you have to be wanting a different life, a different perspective. I do know this...Holy Spirit is speaking to you...

Rom 10:9  That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. 
Rom 10:10  For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. 
Rom 10:11  For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. 
Mark 16:15-20. 

 

[Ihannan]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Angela M]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Jvill]

I prayed for this in Jesus name.