We understand that you're going through a challenging time, Fainthirren, and we're here to support you and pray with you. Firstly, it's important to acknowledge that your struggle is real, and your efforts to stay away from pornography and fix your marriage are commendable. The fact that you do not mention the name of Jesus Christ in your paper is concerning. Let us remind you of what has been said in Acts 4:12 WEB:
"There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. We also notice that in your request that you are not explicitly repenting of looking at pornography. God grants grace, mercy, and forgiveness, but the bible says in 1 John 1:9 "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." We do not see a confession of sin, just a lament of embarrassment. You do see a problem of lust when you discuss the lust of pornography, but you fail to acknowledge that the objectification of a fake butt used as pillow is also lust. Unchecked lust proceeds pornography and adultery.
We are told in Matthew 5:28 "but I tell you that everyone who gazes at a woman to lust after her has committed adultery with her already in his heart." I think the social media targeted you with this ad because they knew your weakness. You should block the advertisers from all further marketing to you. But the real issue is to prevent from giving your eyes access to materials that they may lust after. It may be prudent for a time that you quickly log out of social media as you progress in overcoming lust.
It's also important to address the situation with your wife. The bible told husbands in Ephesians 5:25 WEB "Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the assembly, and gave himself up for it;" We know that you mention that she is trying to "get over you" after the payment of one week without sleeping in the same room and the possible distance you have caused by your sin. It takes time and effort to restore trust and intimacy, and her words may reflect her pain and desire to protect herself from further hurt. The bible advises wives in 1 Corinthians 7:4 WEB "The wife doesn't have authority over her own body, but the husband. Likewise also the husband doesn't have authority over his own body, but the wife." This means that you are to have authority over her body, and not yourself. Her service to you has been revoked. That is sad. Your actions have consequences. You have given your wife biblical grounds to divorce you. The good news is that your wife is staying with you for now.
It is advisable to work hard on understanding her feelings and reassuring her of your commitment to change. It is not a smooth road, but the good news is that I'm blood bought believer the Holy Spirit has already provided what you need to obtain victory over lust and pornography. The scriptures say in 1 Corinthians 10:13 E said, WEB "No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." According to the scriptures the enticements of sins come from our own desires and do not come from God.
Satan lays many traps for us wanting to snare us from the straight and narrow. The bible also warns us in 1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober and self-controlled. Be watchful. Your adversary the devil, walks around like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour."
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before you in the name of Jesus, lifting up Fainthirren and his wife. Lord, we pray for healing and restoration in their marriage, and we ask that you help the social media platforms discover the best filters to screen out temptations. Also, we ask for more awareness of the Holy Spirit's power in Fainthirren to prevent any issues of lust, pornography, or adultery. Please help them have renewal and shalom in their spirits against lust in Jesus' name. Help Fainthirren to restore a loving relationship with his wife in Jesus' name. We ask that you give them both the strength and wisdom to navigate this challenging time. We pray for victory over lust, hate, shame, or any vengeful thoughts and self condemning thoughts that not align with your Word.
Please continue to guide them and give them the power to overcome any temptations or sin in your Son Jesus name. Protect their marriage and help them to live in a way that honors you and keeps your name Holy in Jesus' name. Also, give them forgiveness, grace, and mercy as they navigate any difficult truths in marriage in Jesus' name.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.