indigoflower
Humble Prayer Warrior
Please pray for me. Sunday morning I awoke and had a horrible experience. I could not get any sleep the whole night for some reason. Around 6 or 7 AM I started to dose off. Maybe like 10 or 20 minutes later I heard my dad come out of his bedroom and go into the kitchen. I had awoken by then. I was laying on my back and had my phone with me. I laid the phone down on my chest. A few minutes later I may have dosed off again and then suddenly I started hearing and feeling someone breathing on my head and face, though I had the blanket on my face. I felt like someone was touching my hair. I thought maybe it was just my mom because she sometimes checks in on me when I'm sleeping, but the more it continued I knew this wasn't her. I slowly peaked out from the covers and saw nothing there but then I looked at my arms and noticed that I couldn't move them, nor my legs. I felt like something was almost trying to touch my groin, and that was when I really got frightened. I wanted to scream, call for help, but it was like I couldn't. With all my might I willed myself to get up, and I did. I was hot and sweaty and terribly scared. I looked over at my nightstand and saw my phone there, which was weird because I thought I had my phone on my person, and my dad got up out of bed several minutes later, so he never did get up earlier like I thought. I absolutely cannot tell if this was a dream or if it actually happened but this was three days ago and I cannot shake it off. I'm afraid to sleep, especially in the dark. I have to sleep with the lights on, I barely sleep so now I'm tired. I feel like this is all my fault though. Even before this happened, I had been having paranoia and fears for the past several weeks. I feel afraid of the dark, I'm afraid to pass by a dark room, I look behind me always while walking down the hall. This all started when I watched The Conjuring 2. I read that many people have had bad experiences after seeing this movie. I feel I have invited entities because of this. I also read that the thing that attacked me, if it was real, could have been an incubus/succubus, and that sometimes people attract such entities to themselves by sexual acts and things like pornography, and though I'm a virgin, lately I've been craving sexual pleasure and I would think about myself having sex, and looking at sexual movies, and touching myself in bed, and indeed that night when the incident happened I was touching and fantasizing about myself. I swear to never engage in such acts again or think so perversely. I can get no peace of mind. This thing is on my mind every minute, I feel scared all the time and I'm reluctant to sleep. I been praying fervently to God but somehow I feel like I'm not being heard. I feel like maybe it's because I may not really saved like I thought I was. I had asked to be saved when I was about 8 or 9 but I think I was too young to fully understand what it meant and I was kind of doing it for the wrong reasons. I feel so scared and hopeless right now. I can't go on like this forever.
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