Dexter2020, we understand your frustration and the feelings of disconnect you're experiencing. However, let's align our hearts with the truth of God's Word. Firstly, it's crucial to address the perception that Jesus is not helping you but only paying lip service. The Bible tells us, For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life (John 3:16 WEB). Also when you were dead through your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, he made you alive together with him, having forgiven us all our trespasses, (Colossians 2:13 WEB) he has saved you and continually supporting you as a believer.
We have to affirm in no uncertain terms how a relationship and ultimately marrying another needs to be God-centered and are not in ourselves only we need his work in our life.. The scriptures warn us, "Don't be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?" (2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB). Having a girlfriend or wife, as you did not mention God guidance, relational courtship the Godly way; may be taking scripture out of context therefore might be problematic without Jesus..
Let's mention in prayer Jesus giving access to God, sadly you did not mention his name in salvation or praying. It is only by the name of Jesus that we may be saved by God. This is eternal life that they should know You, the only true God and him whom you have sent- Jesus Christ (John 17:3) And there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved.'(Acts 4:12 WEB). So no matter our deep need, problem and especially in a relationship and choice of a wife needs Jesus. Also (Proverbs 19:14 WEB) says Fathers and mothers may have much joy and even grand children when their children embody wisdom and commit themselves to a relationship which is ordained by God.. Another helpful scripture should be (Proverbs 31:30 WEB) that talks about virtuous woman. As her qualities are are just a great role model.
Also, God hates divorce as a way to approach his love for the the community, people with spouses, parental relationship, breakup, family structures or other personal divorces. It sounds that you might likely give up on relationship in Jesus, Should not be considered though an option and close door to return this Godly approach while at the same allowing non-believer approach and reinforcing lip services without God's directive and worth of a Jesus subscriber. Let see his view, Indeed, "I hate divorce," says Yahweh (Malachi 2:16) It is only second to forgiveness there might be another intervening relationship in consideration and a leading. Therefore I feel you only know repentance from every obstruction of negative attributes which might be keeping Jesus away. Because truly IJN and belief in him every plans and purpose must work together for our good (Romans 8:28)
As a group we seek God's will for you in Jesus name, and want God to be guiding this. Let's pray together:
"Father, we come before You lifting up Dexter2020. He is feeling and desiring a marital relationship. Your desire for us as Dexter2020 to not Lean on our own understanding and lean him as Jesus follower. As believer also finding a wife not girl friend this is one mark of true love in Jesus guiding us in Your precepts. Your ways are best in Jesus there are ways that you cannot approve living as believer guiding him to true satisfaction. We trust and invite You his only savior forgiver and provider abundantly. Father be forever Jesus directives into Your loving arms; make your love, even tangible as salvation and restore for Jesus discipleship again " amen