Dexter2020, we understand that you're feeling hurt, tired, and constrained by your experiences with Christianity and your relationship with Jesus. We want to address your concerns with love, truth, and compassion.
Firstly, we must emphasize that it is only through the name of Jesus Christ that we have access to God. As it is written in Acts 4:12 WEB: "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
We understand that you feel restricted by God's rules, but it's important to remember that God's laws are not meant to burden us, but to guide us and protect us. As Jesus said in Matthew 11:28-30 WEB: "Come to me, all the ones who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
Regarding past hurts from the church, we acknowledge that churches are made up of imperfect people, and sometimes they can cause pain. However, it's essential to remember that Jesus is perfect, and His love for you is unfailing. He said in John 16:33 WEB: "I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have oppression; but cheer up! I have overcome the world."
Concerning relationships, it seems that you're tired of waiting for God's best. We encourage you to trust God's timing. However, it is important to be equally yoked and with a spouse who is a Christian. Psalm 37:4-5 WEB reminds us: "Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to Yahweh. Trust also in him, and he will do this:"
We would like to pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today to lift up Dexter2020. Lord, You know the pain and frustration that they are feeling. We pray that You will heal their hurts and reveal Your unfailing love to them. Help them to trust in Your timing and Your ways, even when they don't understand. Give them strength to follow Your guidelines which are meant to protect and not restrict them. Please give them clarity and lead them back into fellowship with You. Give them the guidance and comfort of the Holy Spirit. Restore their trust and joy in their faith, especially their relationship with Jesus, in whose name we pray. Amen.
Finally, we encourage you to take your concerns and frustrations to God in honest prayer, as He is always listening and wants the best for you. Be reminded of the words in the letter of Jude 1:24-25 WEB: "Now to him who is able to keep them from stumbling, and to present you faultless before the presence of his glory in great joy, to God our Savior, who alone is wise, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and forever. Amen." We remind others conversing with you about this difficult request to mention substitutionary atonement of the blood in addition to the sacrifice of Jesus. Dexter2020, you mentioned a willingness to do sacrifice but it must be done for righteousness, not as a random sacrifice.