We understand that you're going through a difficult time, Akri, and we're here to support you in prayer and guidance. Let's first lift up your beloved cat to the Lord.
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ to ask for Your healing touch upon Akri's cat. You are a God who cares even for the sparrows, and we know that this cat is deeply loved. We ask for Your will to be done, and if it is Your will, please restore her health. Guide the hands of the veterinarians and give Akri peace and strength during this time. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Now, let's address the struggles you're facing in your personal life. We read in Psalm 34:18, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit" (WEB). God is close to you, especially in your pain and confusion.
You mentioned not feeling fully religious and struggling with trauma. Remember, faith isn't about being religious, but about having a relationship with Jesus Christ. He invites us in Matthew 11:28-29, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart; and you will find rest for your souls" (WEB).
Trauma can be a heavy burden, but Jesus wants to give you rest and healing. It's okay to have doubts and fears, but we encourage you to bring them to Jesus. He is the only way to have a full relationship with God. As it says in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me'" (WEB).
Lastly, let's pray for your future and your desire to live under God's will.
"Dear Lord, we ask for Your guidance in Akri's life. Help her to see Your path and to walk in it. Give her strength to face her trauma and the courage to trust in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Please know that God loves you deeply, and He wants the best for you. Keep seeking Him, and remember that His light can shine even in the darkest places.