Seriously? I Thought I Was At My Lowest But Things Keep Getting Worse

[EAndersen]

So after all my praying things are still just getting worse and worse. I need something to finally happen. This is ridiculous, I still do everything that I can right, I keep my eyes on God, I put up with things NO ONE should have to put up with and I'm only getting punished. Let it be over. I'm to the point where I won't stand for it anymore, I lost all my friends and alienated some of my family cause I finally told them what pathetic, cold-hearted hypocrits they were and how they've only taken me for granted and used me as an emotional punching bag because I'm a nice guy. Well God, I need you to finally show up because I really don't see how anything can get worse. I've lost all my family, my fiance, she's sleeping with this drunk low-life who sends me explicit rants and she's moving in with him and turned from an angel into this vindictive thing, my grandma just got cancer and my aunts have died, all my childhood animals just died, we might lose the house, my family are all losing their jobs, I'm going to be dropped from college and there's seriously nothing I can do about any of this. I've prayed, I've turned the other cheek to people literally spitting in my face, I've just smiled and told my ex-fiance "I'll forgive you if one day you come back and apologize" right after she rubs it in my face all the things that she's done. I had the decency to let a guy move in with me, my childhood friend, who had stole my girlfriend from me a few years back and we'd moved on and he just did it again and I won't stand for it. I kicked him out of my house and he blames me. My life is full of nothing but lowly, disgusting, lying, cheating, hypocritical people. The only car we have just broke down, and we have about 200 dollars in the bank account. This all happened in the last four months. I'm done. Every time I pray, things take such a drastic turn for the worse that I feel like I SHOULDN'T pray. But I'm still doing it. And don't start in about the spirit of Joseph because I haven't questioned God, I have remained faithful that things will get better my whole life since I was a child being physically and emotionally tortured, I still pray, but this seriously needs to end. I lost everything I loved and I'm STILL a better person than any of them. Please pray that things change. For me to have a job, for my fiance to snap out of this and come back and SHOW ME she is sorry, for that monster she's with to be punished, for everyone in my life to find God and crawl out of the pits THEY PUT THEMSELVES INTO and for me to finally be rewarded for dealing with this ridiculous amount of stress. Give me a miracle. I've been humble my whole life, but honestly, my mother, my brother and I DESERVE a miracle at this point. Our lives have been filled with almost continual, non-stop hardships and we've endured and been the best people we can be. I sacrificed so much for so many strangers. I've stopped and taken care of drug-addicted girls for nights just to keep them from being taken advantage of, just because I felt that it was my responsibility if something happened later. I've donated money to strangers in need, and I've bought dinners for the homeless on my own whim. I've gotten myself beaten and bruised to help people being bullied, and I've stood up for people who were my enemies but I knew that what was happening to them was wrong. I'm tired of sacrificing everything I have and getting nothing back but more air to breathe. Maybe that's what this is for, so that I can stand up for myself and DEMAND for better from the people around me and from the world. I can't do any of it on my own but God come into my life and change things for the better.

 

[Articles]

May God hear your request and grant it according to his will. In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[bluebirds38]

dear lord i pray that you hear his plea and answer his prayers, bless him abundantly, in jesus name amen.

 

[faithope]

Dear Lord, please send YOur servants across his path as well as his mother and brother's that Your servants may pray and encourage them in the related issues of their life. ANd if EAnderson is not connected to Your church, may he find the one that You have for him and his dear family to be planted in as we ask this in Your mighty Name, Jesus, amen.

 

[EAndersen]

Thank you very much for the prayers it means a lot

 

[faithope]

and may He lead you to the ROck that is higher than your situation and yourself, amen and amen. -Psalms 61