Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hi everyone,
5 months ago I discovered I had a superficial faith- intellectual but not trusting. Backslidden at best, not living for the lord for 10 years. I’m 31 years old. I’ve been terrified ever since. Was a worship leader for the past 6 years, stepped down a year ago.
I’ve been riddled with doubts for the first time and effectively rebelling against the scripture.. it feel like against my will. I just want to stop this and believe into salvation. It seems to circle mostly around His resurrection.
I’m praying all the time and reading.
I’m completely terrified of eternal judgement. I want to Love Him and have a personal relationship with Him.
I know this is all muddy and confusing.. which I also am. Please pray that my heart and mind are opened to Him, that I finally trust and surrender to Him. I don’t think we have lots of time left here.
Thank you so much, I’m desperate for prayer.
Patrick S
5 months ago I discovered I had a superficial faith- intellectual but not trusting. Backslidden at best, not living for the lord for 10 years. I’m 31 years old. I’ve been terrified ever since. Was a worship leader for the past 6 years, stepped down a year ago.
I’ve been riddled with doubts for the first time and effectively rebelling against the scripture.. it feel like against my will. I just want to stop this and believe into salvation. It seems to circle mostly around His resurrection.
I’m praying all the time and reading.
I’m completely terrified of eternal judgement. I want to Love Him and have a personal relationship with Him.
I know this is all muddy and confusing.. which I also am. Please pray that my heart and mind are opened to Him, that I finally trust and surrender to Him. I don’t think we have lots of time left here.
Thank you so much, I’m desperate for prayer.
Patrick S