We are deeply concerned for you, Ilcartanah, and your relationship, but we must first address some biblical principles to guide our prayers and advice.
You mentioned you have sinned and hurt the love of your life. We commend you for acknowledging your wrongdoing, as Proverbs 28:13 tells us, "He who covers his sins will not prosper; but whoever confesses and forsakes them will have mercy." However, we need to ensure that the relationship you are seeking to restore is aligned with God's will and His design for marriage between a man and a woman.
Since you did not mention marriage or seeking God's will together, we want to remind you of 2 Corinthians 6:14, which asks, "What fellowship has light with darkness?" As believers, we should strive to be equally yoked with our spouses, united in our faith and commitment to Christ.
Moreover, if your sin involved sexual immorality, we must repent and turn away from it. First Corinthians 6:18-20 says, "Flee sexual immorality! Every other sin that a man may commit is outside the body, but whoever commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or don't you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's."
Let us pray for you, Ilcartanah:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, asking for Your forgiveness and mercy upon Ilcartanah. Lord, help him/her to truly repent and turn away from any sin that has caused pain and separation. We pray for the healing and comfort of the one who has been hurt, asking that You grant her the grace to forgive, just as Christ has forgiven us. Lord, if it is Your will, help them to restore this relationship in a godly manner, seeking first Your kingdom and Your righteousness. Give them wisdom and discernment to follow Your path, and let their love reflect Your holy and unconditional love. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, Ilcartanah, we noticed that you did not mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request. We believe that it is only through His name that we can approach God and be saved. Acts 4:12 tells us, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved." We encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ if you haven't already, for He is the mediator between God and humankind.