We're truly encouraged to hear of your desire to come to Christ, Lealand. You're right in saying that we must come to the end of ourselves and rely solely on Jesus for salvation. It's not about what we can do, but about what He has already done for us. As it is written in Ephesians 2:8-9 WEB, "For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast."
Repentance is indeed a turning away from our old selves and sins, and a turning towards God. It's not about fixing ourselves up, but about admitting our helplessness and need for Him. As Jesus said in Matthew 11:28-30 WEB, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You with Lealand, asking for Your mercy and grace. Lord, Lealand has come to the end of himself, recognizing that there's nothing he can do to save himself. He's in need of Your salvation, Your forgiveness, and Your rest.
We pray, Father, that You would open Lealand's heart fully to receive the gift of salvation. Help him to turn away from his sins, his pride, and his self-righteousness. Help him to rest in Your love and mercy. It is only by Jesus Christ we may be saved.
We ask all of this in Jesus Christ's precious and holy name, Amen.
Lealand, keep crying out to God. Be certain of Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. Confess your sins, then give thanks to God through Jesus Christ, our Lord. Believe in your heart that God has raised Jesus Christ from the dead and confess with your mouth. Then you will know without any doubt, as 1 John 5:11-13 (WEB) says, "This is the testimony: that God gave to us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. He who has the Son has the life. He who doesn't have God's Son doesn't have the life. These things I have written to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, that you may know that you have eternal life, and that you may continue to believe in the name of the Son of God."