please continue to pray for my complete salvation and the salvation of my family - my daughter Kaya, her boyfriend Ash, my grandchildren - Sophie, Misti, Jazmyn and Aurora and my mum and dad Jan and Pat. Thanks so much for praying, God bless
Jesus has again started answering my prayer for a new heart i am in the process of salvation i went to church yesterday with my daughter for about the 4th time and this was the 1st time we took the kids and it touched them a little. today i was playing a game and misti aged 10 joined in and used one of the teddy bears to be an angel cat and he said i have come to give you a test to see if you are good and kind enough to come to Jesus. then she said there will be consequences if we fail. she said she was taking us to the garden and there was a golden apple tree which we must not eat from and the other rule was that we can eat of the other food but we must not take too much. it was amazing. before that i was crying for 2 hours at least and whenever my daughter came in to comfort me all i was could say was its a beautiful thing, Jesus is giving me a new heart a contrite heart a heart of repentance. before i knew i was a wicked sinner intelluctually but i couldnt feel it in my heart like in my so dead inside prayer. but he is rising me from the deadi can feel the process im in please pray it lasts im at the foot of the cross now confessing all my sins and begging for help with smoking i dont care what anyone says He has put it on my heart that im using it as an idol and it has to go if i am going to be put in the book of life and on the rapture list. today i am maintaing one half of a skinny roll up every hour, usually i smoke about 5 in an hour. my daughter also has a tobacco and marijuana habit she really needs prayers but she needs a mother i am getting stronger now to stay again at her house overnight and still maintain my fast she is so happy all my grandchildren were happy aurora age 3 said the other week why is Jesus so lovely she goes to christian playgroup once a week now. all today the 3 girls were drawing me pictures and making art of crosses they went to sunday school misti was a bit bullied they called her the wrong name and laughed at aurora but only misti saw it and just said dont laugh thats my sister. they are very rebellious and not brought up properly because of how i raised my daughtter with schitzophrenia bi polar depression and heroin and methadone addict. she is amazing she turned out so good and she loves me so much wont hear a word against me always says im the best mum in the world when i was schitzophrenia i thought she was a witch and stopped talking to her for a while but she still forgave me and Jesus is giving me a new heart to forgive myself its amazing my whole family is going to be saved and give up idols its amazing i trust in Gods grace and mercy and to escape the wraft of the lamb which we all deserve. thanks for praying thanks so much sorry for writing so much im getting bi polar manic depression but i need prayer and need to give a praise report to give God his glory
Jesus has again started answering my prayer for a new heart i am in the process of salvation i went to church yesterday with my daughter for about the 4th time and this was the 1st time we took the kids and it touched them a little. today i was playing a game and misti aged 10 joined in and used one of the teddy bears to be an angel cat and he said i have come to give you a test to see if you are good and kind enough to come to Jesus. then she said there will be consequences if we fail. she said she was taking us to the garden and there was a golden apple tree which we must not eat from and the other rule was that we can eat of the other food but we must not take too much. it was amazing. before that i was crying for 2 hours at least and whenever my daughter came in to comfort me all i was could say was its a beautiful thing, Jesus is giving me a new heart a contrite heart a heart of repentance. before i knew i was a wicked sinner intelluctually but i couldnt feel it in my heart like in my so dead inside prayer. but he is rising me from the deadi can feel the process im in please pray it lasts im at the foot of the cross now confessing all my sins and begging for help with smoking i dont care what anyone says He has put it on my heart that im using it as an idol and it has to go if i am going to be put in the book of life and on the rapture list. today i am maintaing one half of a skinny roll up every hour, usually i smoke about 5 in an hour. my daughter also has a tobacco and marijuana habit she really needs prayers but she needs a mother i am getting stronger now to stay again at her house overnight and still maintain my fast she is so happy all my grandchildren were happy aurora age 3 said the other week why is Jesus so lovely she goes to christian playgroup once a week now. all today the 3 girls were drawing me pictures and making art of crosses they went to sunday school misti was a bit bullied they called her the wrong name and laughed at aurora but only misti saw it and just said dont laugh thats my sister. they are very rebellious and not brought up properly because of how i raised my daughtter with schitzophrenia bi polar depression and heroin and methadone addict. she is amazing she turned out so good and she loves me so much wont hear a word against me always says im the best mum in the world when i was schitzophrenia i thought she was a witch and stopped talking to her for a while but she still forgave me and Jesus is giving me a new heart to forgive myself its amazing my whole family is going to be saved and give up idols its amazing i trust in Gods grace and mercy and to escape the wraft of the lamb which we all deserve. thanks for praying thanks so much sorry for writing so much im getting bi polar manic depression but i need prayer and need to give a praise report to give God his glory