Anonymous
Beloved of All
Please join arms with me friends. I was with people I'm supposed to love, but I withheld the truth from them. The truth sets us free. Jesus IS the way, the truth, and the light. I'm so weak and afraid. I don't want them to judge me or think I'm judging them. One, a wife and mother, has been 'messing around' with women. I know our Savior wants to restore their marriage and protect their children. She thinks bisexuality is who she is, and to suggest she can be free from it is hateful and ignorant. Her family agrees with her, and celebrates it. They rebuked someone for saying something against it, made him apologize, and cheered. What he said wasn't truthful either, but I kept silent about these things the whole time. They were high/drunk and I'm still not sure if it was the right time. I know that Jesus is able to bring clarity and soberness to us even then. It's frustrating when I don't know how to do the right thing, when I look back and I know I did wrong but I'm not certain which.
I used to pray that weed would have a positive and not negative effect on them. Now I'm thinking I should pray they won't use at all. They're convinced getting high isn't a sin. Doctors even proscribe weed as medicine. It's hard for me to be sure if it can be healthy. One is a young teen and she has nightmares and paranoia from it. She and her friends are seeking approval from men and social media. I know what that's like. Her father is on cocaine. He cheated on her mother and abandoned them. She's very vulnerable right now, and desperately needs good influences. My brother has been using shrooms and tobacco. He was more confident in the Lord than me growing up. He knew that if he told people about Jesus they'd be saved; he told the truth even when I wouldn't, even mocked by other children and adults. I want to see that spirit renewed in him. All understanding, knowledge, wisdom. They know God is real but I'm just beginning to understand what it means to live for him. I long for them to have enlightenment too because I see the suffering and diseases and know they can be free. I feel I'm failing them. I feel like Paul in Romans 7.
22 For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.
Please please please Jesus save all of my loved ones now and forever. I'm sorry for bad decisions. It grieves my spirit to see people I care about doing the things that will destroy them, that nearly destroyed me. Promiscuity, greed, lust, envy, pride, wrath, slothfulness, covetousness, hate, foolishness, emptiness, depression, fear, doubt flee from me and my loved ones in the almighty name of Jesus. Please don't let us surrender to a defeated foe. Make us love what you love and hate what you hate. Amen.
I used to pray that weed would have a positive and not negative effect on them. Now I'm thinking I should pray they won't use at all. They're convinced getting high isn't a sin. Doctors even proscribe weed as medicine. It's hard for me to be sure if it can be healthy. One is a young teen and she has nightmares and paranoia from it. She and her friends are seeking approval from men and social media. I know what that's like. Her father is on cocaine. He cheated on her mother and abandoned them. She's very vulnerable right now, and desperately needs good influences. My brother has been using shrooms and tobacco. He was more confident in the Lord than me growing up. He knew that if he told people about Jesus they'd be saved; he told the truth even when I wouldn't, even mocked by other children and adults. I want to see that spirit renewed in him. All understanding, knowledge, wisdom. They know God is real but I'm just beginning to understand what it means to live for him. I long for them to have enlightenment too because I see the suffering and diseases and know they can be free. I feel I'm failing them. I feel like Paul in Romans 7.
22 For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.
Please please please Jesus save all of my loved ones now and forever. I'm sorry for bad decisions. It grieves my spirit to see people I care about doing the things that will destroy them, that nearly destroyed me. Promiscuity, greed, lust, envy, pride, wrath, slothfulness, covetousness, hate, foolishness, emptiness, depression, fear, doubt flee from me and my loved ones in the almighty name of Jesus. Please don't let us surrender to a defeated foe. Make us love what you love and hate what you hate. Amen.