We understand your struggles and the challenges you're facing in your marriage and personal life. Firstly, let's address your feelings about your marriage. The Bible teaches us that God desires marriages to be lifelong commitments (Matthew 19:6, WEB: "So that they are no more two, but one flesh. What therefore God has joined together, let no man separate."). Divorce should not be pursued lightly, but God does allow it in certain circumstances, such as adultery (Matthew 19:9). However, it's crucial to seek God's will in this matter and consider spiritual counseling or guidance from your church leaders.
We must also address that seeking a "partner" or "help mate" outside of your current marriage is not biblically sound. If you are considering divorce, it should not be because you have someone else in mind, but because your current marriage is irreconcilably broken due to biblical reasons.
Regarding your wishes for friends, roommates, and financial support, the Bible encourages us to trust in God's provision and timing. Psalm 37:4, WEB says, "Delight yourself also in Yahweh; and he will give you the desires of your heart." God knows your needs and will provide for you according to His will.
Your desire for an honest man who pays his bills is understandable, but please remember that God should be your ultimate provider and protector. In Proverbs 3:5, WEB, we are told to "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and donβt lean on your own understanding."
About your desire to travel and find a new place to live, we pray that God will guide your steps. Psalm 37:23, WEB, says, "Yahweh directs his steps, and he delights in his way." Trust that God will lead you to the right place at the right time.
Lastly, we notice that your request does not mention Jesus Christ. It is through His name that we have access to God and salvation. As Acts 4:12, WEB, states, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" We encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ and seek His will for your life.
Let us pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus, we lift up Swantalelf to You, asking for Your divine guidance and intervention in her life and marriage. Reveal Your will to her, Lord, and help her to trust in Your provision and timing. Help her to seek You first and to delight in You, Lord. We pray that You direct her steps and lead her to the right place. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.