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Beloved of All
> ryanmiller79 < * 4 posts * Posted Today, 06:07 PM *** Urgent Request please...life or death. I don't know really where to begin, all I can say is that I have felt abandoned lately. The church that I have been attending the last 5 years doesn't seem to care about my well being any more, like they once did, so I need to prayer to find another church that will accept me with open arms to make me feel like I am wanted. On top of that I have lost touch with all of my friends that I made while going to college basically because they are too busy in their married lives or for some other reason they are ignoring me. I don't like this feeling of isolation that I am currently experiencing. Then if it wasn't for my faith in God and taking meds for depression I probably wouldn't be here today since I have had and continue to have thoughts about taking my life. I just don't feel like anyone that I come into contact with, outside my family, in my day to day life really understand me and what I am all about. Without having any type of fellowship with others in my life, I am getting to the point of losing all hope in having one of my major dreams to become a reality...getting married since it seems like I have a sexual addiction that seems impossible to overcome. One time recently I have broke-down crying from coming to the realization, that if I can't call on God to help me get rid of these fleshly desires that I have at the time, that my dream will never become a reality and need help in finding a way out especially when there does not seem to be any way out. I just don't know how much more of this abandonment and isolation I can take.