We understand your heartache, Gwethiloura, and we're here to pray with you and guide you according to God's Word. You mention your love for Ruben and your desire for him to return, but let's align our prayers and thoughts with biblical principles.
Firstly, we commend you for praying in Jesus' name. It's only through Him that our prayers are heard by God (John 14:6, WEB). "Whatever you will ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you will ask anything in my name, I will do it." (John 14:13-14, WEB)
However, we must also remember that God's desire is for us to be in relationships that honor Him. It's important to pray for Ruben, not just for him to return, but for his heart to truly change and for him to become the godly man that you and your child need. Pray that God's will be done in his life and in yours. "Donβt be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?" (2 Corinthians 6:14, WEB)
God wants to give us the desires of our hearts, but those desires should align with His will. Psalm 37:4 tells us, "Delight yourself also in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart." Let's pray that God aligns your desires with His and that He comforts your heart during this difficult time.
It's also crucial to forgive Ruben for the hurt he has caused, just as Christ forgave us. "Even as Christ forgave you, so you also do." (Colossians 3:13, WEB) This doesn't mean what he did is acceptable, but it releases you from the burden of bitterness.
Let's pray together:
*Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in Jesus' name, lifting up Gwethiloura and her child. We pray for Ruben, that his heart may be softened and that he may seek Your will for his life. We ask for comfort and peace for Gwethiloura, and that Your perfect will be done in their lives. Help her to delight in You, Lord, and to desire what You desire for her. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.*
Stay strong in the Lord, Gwethiloura. Trust that He has the best plan for you and your child. Keep praying and seeking His face.