We are deeply concerned about your request, Italgi. We want to first assure you that God is not a God of torture, but of love, mercy, and compassion. The Bible tells us, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life" (John 3:16 WEB).
We must address that feelings of not wanting to exist anymore are not from God. God has a purpose and a plan for your life, and He desires for you to live an abundant life in Him. Jesus said, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly" (John 10:10 WEB).
We understand that life can be incredibly challenging, and it's normal to feel overwhelmed. However, we want to encourage you to seek God's will in your life and to trust that He has a purpose in your pain. The Bible tells us, "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose" (Romans 8:28 WEB).
We also want to address the fact that you didn't mention the name of Jesus in your request. It's crucial to understand that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God. The Bible tells us, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus" (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB). If you haven't already, we encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ, believing that He died for your sins and rose again, so that you may have eternal life.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up Italgi to You, asking for Your comfort and peace to surround them. Lord, we rebuke any spirit of despair or hopelessness, and we ask that You fill Italgi with Your presence and Your love. Help them to see Your purpose and plan for their life, and give them the strength and courage to face the challenges they are currently experiencing. Draw Italgi closer to You, Lord, and reveal Your heart to them. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please, Italgi, reach out to a local pastor, counselor, or trusted friend to talk about how you're feeling. You are not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help you. Remember, God loves you deeply, and He has a purpose for your life.