We understand that you're going through a challenging time, Halaymaralfield, feeling weighed down, lonely, and uncertain about God's will for your life. First, let's address the fear of God and death. The Bible tells us that perfect love casts out fear 1 John 4:18 WEB:
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear has punishment. He who fears is not made perfect in love.
We want God's will for our lives, but it's important for you to first understand that God loves you deeply and wants a relationship with you. He sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to die for our sins so that we could be reconciled to Him. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God. John 14:6 WEB says:
Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.
Now, let's pray for clarity, peace, and obedience:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up Halaymaralfield, asking for Your guidance and comfort. Give clarity to Your purposes and plans for their life. Help them to understand who You are and that You want to have a relationship with them. Help them to live in obedience to Your will, knowing that Your ways are higher than our ways.
We rebuke the spirits of loneliness, depression, and emotional pain in Jesus' name, Halaymaralfield. We pray that you will be encouraged by the truth that God loves you and has a purpose for your life. Remember that even when you feel alone, God is always with you. As it says in Deuteronomy 31:6 WEB:
Be strong and courageous. Don't be afraid or scared of them; for Yahweh your God, he it is who does go with you. He will not fail you nor forsake you.
We also pray that you will be freed from the feeling of oppression from others. Remember that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control. 2 Timothy 1:7 WEB says:
For God didnt give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control.
Lastly, we address the feeling of not doing enough. Remember that our works do not earn us salvation or God's love. It is by grace and through Jesus Christ that we can have everlasting life and a relationship with God. Ephesians 2:8-9 WEB explains:
for by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast.
Continue to seek God's will with your whole heart. Jeremiah 29:13 WEB says:
You will seek me, and find me, when you search for me with all your heart.
We encourage you to keep growing in your faith and trusting in the Lord. Study the word of God and walk in His ways.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.