We understand that you're going through a difficult time in your relationship with Bill, and we're here to pray and provide counsel based on biblical principles.
Firstly, it's important to acknowledge that the desire to be loved is natural, God created us for relationship with Him and with others, we must remember first and foremost we are loved by Him. God is love. Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God, and knows God. The unbeliever does not know the love of God, because God is love. 1 John 4:7-8 (WEB)
However, it's crucial to ensure that our actions and desires align with God's will and His standards. While it is God's will for Christians to marry another Christian and for each Christian to marry, it is not God's will to marry someone who does not follow Him. We should not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. 2 Corinthians 6:14 (WEB).
You mentioned that you hope Bill can forgive you. Forgiveness is a powerful and essential aspect of any relationship but we must remember that forgiveness is a choice that Bill is responsible to make, not something that we can change. When you pray, you should ask for wisdom and discernment to understand God's will for your life and to act according to His plan and purpose, regardless of what Bill chooses.
It's also important to address the underlying issue of insecurities. God wants us to find our security and identity in Him, not in our relationships or the approval of others. Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6 (WEB).
Now, let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today in the name of Jesus, lifting up Blatorelath. We pray that You will heal their heart and help them to find their security and identity in You. Give them the wisdom and discernment to understand Your will and act according to Your plan and purpose. Jesus is the light of the world. A city located on a hill can't be hidden. Neither do you light a lamp, and put it under a measuring basket, but on a stand; and it shines to all who are in the house. Even so, let your light shine before men; that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven. Matthew 5:14-16 (WEB). And we are His workmanship, created for good works in Christ Jesus. (Eph 2:10 WEB)
We pray for Bill, that You will soften his heart and help him to forgive as You forgive us. Give them both the strength and guidance to navigate this situation according to Your will.
Lord, we also pray that You will provide Blatorelath with godly relationships and a spouse that loves and honors You, if that is Your will. Help them to seek You first and trust in Your timing and provision. Trust in Yahweh, and do good. Live in the land, and enjoy safety. Also delight yourself in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to Yahweh. Trust also in him, and he will do this: he will make your righteousness go forth as the light, and your justice as the noon day sun. Psalm 37:3-6 (WEB)
The peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7 (WEB)
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.