We understand your struggles and appreciate your heartfelt prayer, lost_soul. Let's bring your concerns together before the Lord and seek His guidance and comfort.
Firstly, it's important to address the bitterness, anger, and anxiety you're feeling. The Bible tells us, "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:6-7 WEB). We encourage you to continually bring these emotions to God and trust that He will replace them with His peace.
Regarding your in-laws, Jesus commands us to "love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, and pray for those who mistreat you" (Matthew 5:44 WEB). Instead of blocking out negative emotions, pray for them and ask God to help you forgive and love them, despite their attitudes. Remember, "If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men" (Romans 12:18 WEB).
Concerning your writing, trust that God will give you the focus and focus you need. "Commit your works to Yahweh, and your plans shall be established" (Proverbs 16:3 WEB). Ask for His strength and wisdom to complete the first draft.
We praise God that you acknowledge the Holy Spirit's role in your learning process. Remember, "For it is God who works in you both to will and to work, for his good pleasure" (Philippians 2:13 WEB).
Regarding your son, know that God loves him even more than you do. Trust that He will provide time for you both after your dissertation. "But Jesus said, 'Allow the little children, and don't forbid them to come to me; for the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to ones like these.'" (Matthew 19:14 WEB).
Let's pray:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You, lifting up lost_soul. Lord, pour out Your wisdom and peace upon them, and help them to forgive and love their in-laws. Help them to focus and complete their first draft. We ask that You will provide quality time for them and their son after this season. Guide them continually, and may Your will be done in their life. We pray this in Jesus' name, Amen.
Lastly, lost_soul, remember that it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus" (1Timothy 2:5 WEB). Keep trusting in Him.