Loermormond
Disciple of Prayer
I would like to repent and release seeking prophesy etc. I am in the process of leaving a Pentecostal church where I learned about all this, and although I've been horrible at "delivering words" etc and have never been able to levitate or other supernatural gifting, I no longer want to even yearn for these gifting. It was wild to learn that these elders had seen limbs grow back and golden dust falling etc, but something in my gut just doesn't feel right about all this. I grew up in a traditional house of God where biblical doctrine was emphasized as well as forgiveness, prayer etc and men and women had different roles etc and always felt that life and environment was boring, I've come to see several loved ones going really astray believing "prophesies" that are just not in alignment with God's word. I do not deny all this but I've lost the zeal I previously had, to know what the future holds, especially as I process the loss of loved ones and recognize life just cannot be predicted. I am struggling with the fear that life will be boring if I were to join a church that is focused on biblical doctrine and just ordinary life in God. A wise pastor told me that God gives us revelations but it comes with maturing in the faith, as we pray, forgive, grow closer to Him, serve others, pursue sanctification etc instead of seeking shortcuts. He emphasized letting God be in charge instead of trying to manifest and trying to changing God's mind, to trust He is only good and as I live an ordinary life in God, I will recognize how beautiful it is. Jesus, please give me understanding as to which path you want me to pursue, and to peacefully and cordially close all doors that need to be closed and to discern Truth, the absolute truth. How will I know what steps to take, what decisions to make, if I am not seeking prophesy? Please help me distinguish listening to your voice from other activities. Please heal all FOMO in me that people doing levitations etc have gotten to an advanced state with Jesus and help me understand the path to maturing in the faith and having a deeper relationship with God.