Dyrwach, we understand that you're going through a difficult time in your relationship and that it's causing you to struggle with your faith. We're here to pray with you and to offer some biblical guidance.
Firstly, it's important to remember that our faith is not based on our circumstances but on God's unchanging nature. As it says in Hebrews 11:1, "Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." (WEB) . We are to live by faith, not by sight (2 Corinthians 5:7).
Regarding your relationship, it's clear that you're experiencing a lot of pain. We must remember that God's intention for relationships is that they reflect His love for us. A godly courtship honors God and should be a picture of Christ and the church (Ephesians 5:25-33 WEB). Anything less than that is not God's best for you. The word cuddle is not a word used in the Bible to describe a relationship. This term is also called petting and can lead to sin or be sin itself. The Bible calls for a husband and wife to lie together in sexual intimacy and to enjoy each other physically, with tenderness and affection that is pure and reserved for marriage (Proverbs 5:15-20). You should express your desire to be married and go to a pastor or other Christian for counseling together. Remember, "Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?" (2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB)
It's also important to note that God does not promise us a life free from pain, but He does promise to be with us through it all. As it says in Romans 8:28, "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose." (WEB)
We must also be careful not to blame God for the actions of others. Owen's behavior is his own responsibility, and it's not a reflection of God's love for you. It's wonderful that you're praying for Owen, but remember that you cannot change him—that is the work of the Holy Spirit. You should pray for wisdom and discernment for yourself as well (James 1:5).
Let's pray together:
"Heavenly Father, we lift Dyrwach up to you right now, asking that you would strengthen her faith and help her to trust in you, even in this difficult time. We pray for your comfort and peace to fill her heart. We also lift Owen up to you, asking that you would soften his heart and draw him closer to you. We pray for your will to be done in their relationship, and that you would give Dyrwach the wisdom and discernment she needs to navigate this situation. Lord, if it’s your will and this relationship is honoring to you, please bless and save it and bless it with love and longevity. If not help her to release it and move on. If it is your will marry them. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."