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Hi Everyone,
I had met someone on a Christian dating site and we met in person and hit it off in January 2024. Things were going well and then he "pulled back"I think he has depression, I haven't spoken to him in 10 weeks. Two weeks ago I added him back on social media and he immediately began liking my photos and stories. I know it's silly but to me that shows that he is still interested in connecting.
Anyways, last night I sent a message asking f he wanted to talk on the phone at some point, and it's been 12 hours with no response. I ended up deleting the message. I feel stupid because I know that if this relationship is from God, HE will cause it to happen, but I was feeling so full of faith last night and confident that it was the right decision. I would move on but there is something in me that says P is supposed to be in my life. I am embarrassed for how much I want this to work, and I have sought God for months daily. I cry daily still over this. I'm crying right now. I don't know why he pulled back. I know "God's rejection is God's protection" but I have had this strong sense of "God is the God of impossible" and have focused my faith on believing for a positive outcome, even if it's a solid friendship. The last message I sent to him back in June did call him out for his actions not matching his words. Again, I keep reading about scripture where God turned things around, relationships, people, situations that seemed hopeless. I keep reading online "Your Breakthrough is around the corner!" And at this point I would accept not having feelings for him anymore. I am so embarrassed for reaching out to him. I'm embarrassed for caring for someone and praying nonstop that God will make a way. I know relationships are a two way street but I genuinely feel like this guy cares for me. There's a connection here and our hobbies and life goals match perfectly. I've never been more distraught in my life, and I was in an abusive relationship/marriage for 8 years and went through a divorce.
I don't know what to do. I feel hopeless about this situation. I have pleaded with God, prayed in tongues, journaled, sought counseling, called prayer lines. I feel pathetic for caring so much but I want this person in my life. If he didn't care , why would he have added me back online and started reaching out? I need God's help. I know this is so stupid there are so many other big life issues out there that people are facing and I am so grateful to God for my family, job, home, opportunities. It's just this one area that I am struggling so terribly in that I'm miserable and don't know what is wrong with me. I wish I could just disappear. When will God come through for me? When will he restore this relationship, or provide someone even better? Jesus help me.
Kirsten
I had met someone on a Christian dating site and we met in person and hit it off in January 2024. Things were going well and then he "pulled back"I think he has depression, I haven't spoken to him in 10 weeks. Two weeks ago I added him back on social media and he immediately began liking my photos and stories. I know it's silly but to me that shows that he is still interested in connecting.
Anyways, last night I sent a message asking f he wanted to talk on the phone at some point, and it's been 12 hours with no response. I ended up deleting the message. I feel stupid because I know that if this relationship is from God, HE will cause it to happen, but I was feeling so full of faith last night and confident that it was the right decision. I would move on but there is something in me that says P is supposed to be in my life. I am embarrassed for how much I want this to work, and I have sought God for months daily. I cry daily still over this. I'm crying right now. I don't know why he pulled back. I know "God's rejection is God's protection" but I have had this strong sense of "God is the God of impossible" and have focused my faith on believing for a positive outcome, even if it's a solid friendship. The last message I sent to him back in June did call him out for his actions not matching his words. Again, I keep reading about scripture where God turned things around, relationships, people, situations that seemed hopeless. I keep reading online "Your Breakthrough is around the corner!" And at this point I would accept not having feelings for him anymore. I am so embarrassed for reaching out to him. I'm embarrassed for caring for someone and praying nonstop that God will make a way. I know relationships are a two way street but I genuinely feel like this guy cares for me. There's a connection here and our hobbies and life goals match perfectly. I've never been more distraught in my life, and I was in an abusive relationship/marriage for 8 years and went through a divorce.
I don't know what to do. I feel hopeless about this situation. I have pleaded with God, prayed in tongues, journaled, sought counseling, called prayer lines. I feel pathetic for caring so much but I want this person in my life. If he didn't care , why would he have added me back online and started reaching out? I need God's help. I know this is so stupid there are so many other big life issues out there that people are facing and I am so grateful to God for my family, job, home, opportunities. It's just this one area that I am struggling so terribly in that I'm miserable and don't know what is wrong with me. I wish I could just disappear. When will God come through for me? When will he restore this relationship, or provide someone even better? Jesus help me.
Kirsten