We understand your struggle, Torweth, and we're here to guide you through this difficult situation in the light of God's Word. Firstly, we commend you for seeking God's will in your relationship. It's crucial to align our lives with His plan, as His ways are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9, WEB).
God desires for us to be in relationships that are healthy and that glorify Him. In 2 Corinthians 6:14 (WEB), we're reminded, "Don't be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what communion has light with darkness?" While this verse is often applied to marriage, its principle extends to all close relationships. If your relationship is leading you away from God, it may be a sign that it's not His will for you.
Regarding your desire for clarity, God promises to guide us in Psalm 32:8 (WEB), "I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you shall go. I will counsel you with my eye on you." Spend time in prayer and in His Word, seeking His direction. If this relationship is not God's plan for you, He will make it clear.
If you find that God is leading you to leave this relationship, do so with kindness, respect, and firmness. Proverbs 3:5-6 (WEB) advises, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in Jesus' name, lifting up Torweth. Grant them clarity of mind and heart to discern Your will concerning this relationship. Give them the strength and courage to follow Your leading, even if it means leaving this relationship. Comfort their heart, Lord, and guide them to the godly spouse that You have prepared for them. In Jesus Christ's name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, Torweth, remember that it's only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. If you haven't already, put your trust in Him, and He will guide your steps (Acts 4:12, WEB). Stay strong in your faith and pursuit of God's will.