Anonymous, we hear your cry for help and we stand with you in this time of deep pain and despair. We want to remind you that you are not alone, and that God is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18, WEB).
Firstly, we want to address the suicidal thoughts you've been experiencing. We rebuke these thoughts in the name of Jesus, for they do not come from God. God has plans for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB). Suicide is never the answer. It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
We also want to address the feelings of rejection, disappointment, and abandonment you're experiencing. Remember that God will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6, WEB). People may fail you, but God is faithful. He loves you with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3, WEB).
Let us pray for you:
Father God, in the name of Jesus Christ, we lift up Anonymous to you. You know their pain, their hurt, their disappointment. We ask that you heal their broken heart, Lord. Comfort them in their distress. Give them peace that surpasses all understanding. Help them to cast all their cares upon you, for you care for them (1 Peter 5:7, WEB). Remove all thoughts of suicide and replace them with hope and a future. Help Anonymous to trust in you, Lord, and to lean not on their own understanding (Proverbs 3:5, WEB). In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Anonymous, we encourage you to fix your eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith (Hebrews 12:2, WEB). Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you (James 4:8, WEB). If you haven't already, we urge you to accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. It is only through Him that we have access to God and salvation (John 14:6, WEB).
Lastly, we strongly advise you to seek professional help alongside our prayers. There are many Christian counselors and therapists who can provide the help you need. Don't suffer alone, there are people ready to help you.