We understand that you are going through a difficult time with Malcolm, and we appreciate your heartfelt prayer. It's encouraging to see that both of you have sought forgiveness from each other and from the Lord. Remember, the Bible tells us, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" First John 1:9 WEB.
However, we need to address a few things in your request. First, it's important to understand that God's will and timing are perfect. While you desire reconciliation, it's crucial to trust in His plan. Psalm 37:5 WEB says, "Commit your way to Yahweh. Trust also in him, and he will do this". As followers of Christ, we are called to be patient and trust in His timing.
Secondly, it's essential to respect Malcolm's request for space. While it may be difficult, remember that "Love is patient, love is kind, ...it doesn't behave itself inappropriately, ...it doesn't seek its own way" First Corinthians 13:4-5 WEB. It is important to remember that love does not force itself. Forcing communication with Malcolm or pleading for his attention may not be in accordance with God's will or love as described in the Bible. Instead of thinking of this time as a separation, consider it a time of reflection and growth for both of you.
In your request, you mentioned the intention to marry Malcolm. While this is a good desire, recognize that intimacy has a time and place in marriage. In God's relationship design, He sanctifies a man and a woman coming together in marriage based on intention of permanency. For now, while Malcolm has distanced himself, there is still merit in keeping the goal of marriage in mind. God designed marriage as a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman: "Therefore a man will leave his father and his mother, and will join with his wife, and they will be one flesh" Genesis 2:24 WEB. We encourage you to continue praying for God's will in this situation and for wisdom and guidance if he is indeed the spouse for you.
We will pray with you that God's will be done in your life and in Malcolm's. We pray that God will grant you peace, patience, and understanding during this time. Remember, God's love for you is unfailing, and He is working all things out for your good Romans 8:28 WEB.
Let us pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You with Helem's request. We ask that You grant her peace and comfort during this difficult time. Help her to trust in Your perfect will and timing. We pray for Your mercy on this relationship, and we pray that Malcolm may reach out to her, but only if it is in Your perfect will. Give her the strength and patience to endure this trial, and help her to grow in her faith and love for You. In Jesus' precious and holy name, we pray. Amen.