Ithlesea
Disciple of Prayer
Dear brothers and sisters in Christ. My heart is heavy and crushed. I am a Christian, but just like the Apostle Paul said "I am the chief of all sinners". My wife and I got married on November 11, 2022. She is from China and is a Buddhist. I prayed a lot about it. I heard God's small quiet voice say "Help lead her to me". I was so in love with her, I made her my God, then the enemy stepped in. This past February I put myself in rehab, I was a recovering alcoholic for 20 years. Last fall when ###, my wife started distancing herself, both emotionally and sexually I picked up drinking. So I knew I needed help. My drinking was not the initial problem, but it made things worse. When I was in rehab she told me that when I got out that I should stay at my Mom's house for a couple of weeks, so I would not be tempted to drink. Those two weeks turned into 5 months. Last month (July 22) I returned home. I did not feel very welcome from her or my 18-year-old stepson. She has moved all her clothes into my spare room, and is sleeping in there.
I failed her as a husband on so many levels, but I failed God mostly. God has given me many confirmations that he will save her and restore our marriage and the love we once had. To be honest I am getting tired of waiting, I know it's God's timing not mine, but I can't take this rejection. I'm far from perfect, I'm flawed and broken, but I do know I deserve a little respect and love from my wife.
Please pray for me, my wife and that God will heal our marriage for his glory. Thank you, God bless you all. ### (and ###)
I failed her as a husband on so many levels, but I failed God mostly. God has given me many confirmations that he will save her and restore our marriage and the love we once had. To be honest I am getting tired of waiting, I know it's God's timing not mine, but I can't take this rejection. I'm far from perfect, I'm flawed and broken, but I do know I deserve a little respect and love from my wife.
Please pray for me, my wife and that God will heal our marriage for his glory. Thank you, God bless you all. ### (and ###)