HBPastorToBe
Servant of All
Been doing a lot of work in regards to me traveling out of town. It's not really paying much. So I feel I'm doing this for a reason because it's not about the money. As if God is slowly distancing me from certain things and people. Or just preparing me to get ready to relocate. Normally when things like this begin to happen in my life a major change is near. In some form or fashion. Truth to the matter is I am growing restless where I am. I'm so ready to be on my own to feet again. Either by myself or near my kids, one or the other is fine with me. Where I am is starting to be too much for me at times. I'm constantly tired all the time and it's as if I can't get rest no matter what. It's also hard for me to not do things I don't do on an everyday bases. Temptation wise anyway. I also don't want to become a burden to anybody and go separate ways smoothly without any problems and be able to sustain my life once again on my own. With the help of God of course. I feel it's time. I feel I've done all and more of what God has asked me to accomplish and do where I am according to his will and his kingdom. I know my life is not in my own hands. I know it's the Lord that leads me. And being low is not punishment to me. But training, strengthening, helping others and learning. I am so appreciative of getting help the way I do, because I know it's God's favor that sustains me, not what I do or do not do. But I'm ready for the next journey to begin in my life. Lord send me wherever I am needed most and hopefully this time around I will be more independent and less dependent on others. If that's not the case I still accept whatever your plans are for my life and to where ever and whom ever you send me to. Thank You Lord of all you do for me.