Elizabeth F
Humble Servant of All
Having suffered so much for over six years due to many extremely painful physical illnesses and mental illnesses which cause 24/7 mental torture; many truly awful things happening one after the other; being in hospital twice and now my sister Margaret is really ill following a very serious blood of Diverticulitis and I have to care for her and do EVERYTHING for her which I gladly do as I love her but it is taking a real toll on my health both physical and mental.
She is still having diarrhoea and is so weak.
I can't remember the last time I slept properly. By the end of the day my legs, feet, knees and legs are so swollen, red and painful so can't get comfy in bed and get spasms in my feet and legs.
I feel at breaking point and am frightened as been crying out to Jesus for help but there is just silence.
Today I have felt that if I knew how to kill myself, Margaret and our cat Frankie I would do it to end this living hell!!!!
Dear Jesus I can't take any more suffering and come to you begging for healing for myself and Margaret. Please make life worth living. In Jesus' name Amen
She is still having diarrhoea and is so weak.
I can't remember the last time I slept properly. By the end of the day my legs, feet, knees and legs are so swollen, red and painful so can't get comfy in bed and get spasms in my feet and legs.
I feel at breaking point and am frightened as been crying out to Jesus for help but there is just silence.
Today I have felt that if I knew how to kill myself, Margaret and our cat Frankie I would do it to end this living hell!!!!
Dear Jesus I can't take any more suffering and come to you begging for healing for myself and Margaret. Please make life worth living. In Jesus' name Amen