Llugharay
Humble Prayer Partner
Thank you ALL so very much for your prayers to my prayer requests, your praying support and for joining me in lifting my need for a job and me to urgently find employment, to our Lord God, merciful and powerful Father. It brings Matthew 18: 20 to mind "For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them."
I am grateful for this forum and that I can place my prayers here to seek support as this has been a tough year financially, mentally and emotionally. I am honestly below empty financially as I cannot even think of anyone I can ask for help financially anymore. It is hard for others to continue offering help with their own situation and also after months of not seeing a change in my situation no matter the applications, they may think the situation is hopeless and they don't want my burden. I truly understand their perspective and am grateful for their help so far as if they didn't say yes to God and deliver his miracles to keep me going each month of this year, I don't know what would have happened to me otherwise.
Which is why I have been praying so hard each month while job hunting, praying for success in finding a job as I want to work, I want to be financially responsible for myself, and I want to pay my bills, my debts, and live financially responsible. But no matter what way I try in this job search, I haven't yet find success, but I am still believing, its all I have remaining.
December scares me as many say companies are no longer hiring for the rest of the year. recruiters are now saying 2025, in the meantime how will I pay for this and next month's rent and bills . BUT, like Martha's expressed faith to Jesus in John 11: 22 "But even now I know that God will give You whatever You ask of Him" I know that EVEN NOW, EVEN TODAY God can command a job to be mine, he can deliver a miracle beyond miracles and resurrect my Career and I can progress forward, no matter what it seems or show in the natural, I keep believing in him, even if sometimes my faith is the size of a mustard seed.
When my faith gets to that size, it is not because I don't believe that God is the way through this, it is more from my human weakness of worrying that maybe I won't receive his help anymore or that it is the end of breakthroughs for me. BUT even when I feel hopeless as my human eyes cannot see a way out, I still have a believe in God, even if it is faint because i know ALL answers come from him. I know they say praise even when you don't see a way, I try to honestly, but it is hard to praise when you are in a financial pit. But I pray God knows that me finding it hard to praise through the tears and worry is not because i don't want to OR it isn't because I don't recognise, honor or grateful for all his previous miracles, kindness, care, compassion and thoughtfulness to me - - every job i ever receive in my life has been because of God , every food i ate this year, every money that came to me this year especially has been because of God. I am forever grateful to God as I know my life and I know I couldn't be here today without him. But fear and worry clutch me even as I try to live in the knowledge that God wouldn't have brought me this far to leave me, in the memories of his miracles and love and care.
But sometimes like today my heart swings from faith to fear , from worry to hope, but regardless of where my mind is, i still keep God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit present.
So Thank you all for your prayer support, it helps to see that others , even in their own situation, also pray to help, so thank you it lifts me while I keep trying, keep applying, keep reaching out, keep hoping, and keep praying and believing, knowing OUR GOD IS A FAITHFUL AND GOOD GOD.
I am grateful for this forum and that I can place my prayers here to seek support as this has been a tough year financially, mentally and emotionally. I am honestly below empty financially as I cannot even think of anyone I can ask for help financially anymore. It is hard for others to continue offering help with their own situation and also after months of not seeing a change in my situation no matter the applications, they may think the situation is hopeless and they don't want my burden. I truly understand their perspective and am grateful for their help so far as if they didn't say yes to God and deliver his miracles to keep me going each month of this year, I don't know what would have happened to me otherwise.
Which is why I have been praying so hard each month while job hunting, praying for success in finding a job as I want to work, I want to be financially responsible for myself, and I want to pay my bills, my debts, and live financially responsible. But no matter what way I try in this job search, I haven't yet find success, but I am still believing, its all I have remaining.
December scares me as many say companies are no longer hiring for the rest of the year. recruiters are now saying 2025, in the meantime how will I pay for this and next month's rent and bills . BUT, like Martha's expressed faith to Jesus in John 11: 22 "But even now I know that God will give You whatever You ask of Him" I know that EVEN NOW, EVEN TODAY God can command a job to be mine, he can deliver a miracle beyond miracles and resurrect my Career and I can progress forward, no matter what it seems or show in the natural, I keep believing in him, even if sometimes my faith is the size of a mustard seed.
When my faith gets to that size, it is not because I don't believe that God is the way through this, it is more from my human weakness of worrying that maybe I won't receive his help anymore or that it is the end of breakthroughs for me. BUT even when I feel hopeless as my human eyes cannot see a way out, I still have a believe in God, even if it is faint because i know ALL answers come from him. I know they say praise even when you don't see a way, I try to honestly, but it is hard to praise when you are in a financial pit. But I pray God knows that me finding it hard to praise through the tears and worry is not because i don't want to OR it isn't because I don't recognise, honor or grateful for all his previous miracles, kindness, care, compassion and thoughtfulness to me - - every job i ever receive in my life has been because of God , every food i ate this year, every money that came to me this year especially has been because of God. I am forever grateful to God as I know my life and I know I couldn't be here today without him. But fear and worry clutch me even as I try to live in the knowledge that God wouldn't have brought me this far to leave me, in the memories of his miracles and love and care.
But sometimes like today my heart swings from faith to fear , from worry to hope, but regardless of where my mind is, i still keep God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit present.
So Thank you all for your prayer support, it helps to see that others , even in their own situation, also pray to help, so thank you it lifts me while I keep trying, keep applying, keep reaching out, keep hoping, and keep praying and believing, knowing OUR GOD IS A FAITHFUL AND GOOD GOD.