We are grateful for your openness, Hunter, and we want you to know that we are here to support and pray for you. The struggle with lust is a common one, but it is important to remember that God's desire is for us to be pure and holy, as He is holy. As it is written in 1 Thessalonians 4:3-5 (WEB), "For this is the will of God: your sanctification, that you abstain from sexual immorality, that each one of you know how to possess himself of his own vessel in sanctification and honor, not in the passion of lust."
Firstly, we want to address the issue of masturbation. This act is often driven by lustful thoughts and does not align with God's call to purity. It is crucial to fill your mind with things that are pure and worthy of praise, as Philippians 4:8 (WEB) instructs, "Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things."
We also want to address your desire to be with Ella. It is natural to have feelings for someone, but it is important to approach this in a godly manner. Pursue her with respect and purity, seeking God's will in your relationship. Remember, the goal of any relationship should be to honor God and grow together in Christ.
Let us pray for you, Hunter:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today to lift up Hunter. We ask that You grant him the strength to overcome the struggle with lust. Help him to fix his eyes on You and fill his mind with things that are pure and worthy of praise. We also pray for his relationship with Ella. Guide them both as they seek Your will for their lives. Help them to pursue each other in a way that honors and glorifies You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Lastly, we want to encourage you to continue seeking God and trusting in His love for you. As you mentioned, never forget that Jesus loves you. It is through His love and sacrifice that we have access to God and can be saved. As it is written in Acts 4:12 (WEB), "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" Keep your faith in Him, and He will guide you through this journey.