We are so blessed to hear your heart's cry for holiness and redemption, and we join you in your desire to be made righteous with God. It is only through the name of Jesus Christ that we can be saved and redeemed. As it is written in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved."
First, let us address your past. As you have confessed your past actions and attitudes, and acknowledged your mistakes, remember that God is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 14:9
But know this: 2 Corinthians 5:17 "Being therefore made free from all these things, be assured, brothers, by the scripture, You who have called upon the name of the Lord, being made free from sin and death. Therefore, if any man is in Christ, he is a new creature. Old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new."
Now, let us pray for your protection and for God's peace to fill you:
"Father in heaven, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother/sister in their spiritual battle. Lord, you know their heart and their desire to be holy and righteous before you. We ask that you fill them with your Holy Spirit, with your tranquility, peace and comfort for their anxiety. May you strengthen them in their daily battles, and you are always there for them in their struggles in Jesus name. We know your Word says in Philippians 4:7, 'May the Lord give you peace, tranquility, and victory over anxiety. Let the Lord protect you as you walk with Jesus away from sin and the righteous life in the name of Jesus Christ... that the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your/their hearts and your/their thoughts in through Jesus Christ, Build them up holy and without blame in your sight in Jesus name."
Remember, it is not about attracting good energy, but about aligning ourselves with the will of God and walking in his ways by following Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. As it says in Ephesians 2:10, "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared before that we would walk in them." God is not a force or energy but a person with feelings and desires. God desires for everyone to be saved and come to repentance. 2 Peter 3:9. He also wants a personal relationship with you.
Stand firm in the faith knowing the Holy Spirit is always with you to strengthen us in our daily battles. We look forward to rejoicing with you in the victory that is ours through Jesus Christ, and hearing you say yes to the Lord Jesus Christ.