Eogorsang, we hear the cry of your heart and we stand with you in prayer, seeking God's will for your life. Let us remind you of the words of the Apostle Paul in 2 Corinthians 12:9, "Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me." Remember, it is in our weakness that Christ's strength is made perfect.
Firstly, we want to address the fact that your prayer does not mention the name of Jesus Christ. It is only through His name that we have access to God's throne of grace. As it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" Let us then approach God in the name of Jesus, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12).
We understand that you feel like you're not making any progress towards God's will and that old habits are creeping back. Let's pray together and rebuke these old habits in Jesus' name. Remember what is written in Romans 6:6, "Knowing this, that our old man was crucified with him, that the body of sin might be done away with, so that we would no longer be in bondage to sin." You are a new creation in Christ, and the old has passed away (2 Corinthians 5:17).
You mentioned an eclipse looming over your life. Fear not, for God is your protector. As it is written in Psalm 91:1-2, "He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of Yahweh, 'He is my refuge and my fortress; my God, in whom I trust.'"
Let us pray:
"Father in heaven, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ. We thank You for Your continued patience with us, and for being present in our lives even when we feel undeserving. We lift up Eogorsang to You, Lord. We ask that You protect him and his loved ones from any harm or danger. Guide him towards Your will and the right path. Help him to overcome old habits and live in the newness of life that Christ has provided. Remind him of Your unfailing love and presence, and help him to never feel alone or abandoned. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Be encouraged, Eogorsang. God is with you, and He will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6). Continue to trust in Him and press on towards His calling and purpose for your life.