Faengoedoth
Disciple of Prayer
I have been heavily addicted to a drug which slowly but surely destroys me, my life and my relationship to my loved ones and god. I know god doesn't want that for me, I know I could be a better person if I could let go. I know that. But still I have been falling back. So I want to give a promise now. Because I believe in god and I know he can help me. I know he helps me. I can't give a promise to myself but I can give one to god. So my Lord, dear god, I promise to you, that from now on I will never ever use that substance again. It doesn't matter how strong the urge will be. But I can only do it with you by my side, I don't have the strength alone. So please help me, please, please give me the strength. It has been and will be the hardest thing I will ever have to do. I can only fight this war with you by my side and with you giving me strength and resilience and protection. I love you, I know you want me to get free because the life I'm living under this condition isn't what you want for me. My body is yours and by destroying it I'm working against what greatness you have built. Please help me. From now on I will not fall into that vicious behavior ever again. Be my witness. For all you people on here please be my witness too and please pray for me. I can't anymore, I have almost given up, so please all of you pray for me and believe in me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.