God, Thank you for this day. Thank you for the father, the son, and the Holy Spirit in my life always. Thank you for the father, the son, and the Holy Spirit in my children’s life always. Thank you for the father, the son, and the Holy Spirit in my brothers and sisters life always. And thank you for the father, the son, and the Holy Spirit in the lives of those I don’t know always. I pray for my daughter, Grace. Me and her dad don’t get along. She is tired of hearing me and her dad argue. I try to ignore him and avoid him as much as possible. God, Truly, I do try to ignore him. I am gonna pray for him, even though, I don’t won’t to pray for him, it, I pray for him for my sake and my children’s sake. We are not happy together. We disagree about everything. We don’t communicate. And I’ve been tired of arguing with him for years. Now, I know, he’s not gonna change for no one. I also know, I’m not gonna change for no one but The Lord God Jesus Christ, myself, my children and I pray I have my children with me so they too can serve a mighty God. Grace said, she has been having suicidal thoughts, she has depression, anger, anxiety, and I pray the evil will be cast out and or she can learn to overcome it and leave her immediately, so, she can live a happier, kinder life. And I pray she won’t have those thoughts, but, they be replaced with good positive thoughts. Because it would kill me if she ever did that to herself when she has so much potential and good talents. She messaged me the other night, that she can’t talk to me or to her dad. But, she talked to her dad about her suicidal thoughts last night. She messaged me. I send her scriptures of The Holy Bible, and she says they are fake, stop sending them, because she don’t believe because of how she feels and what she is going theough, and so, I pray, she will believe in The Holy Bible, fear The Good Lord, and believe in Jesus The Messiah, and Gods good spirit in our life so she can be healed and have positive thoughts and good dreams. I still send them because I know she loves all of these because she is crying out and trying so hard to find you, Jesus, and I pray she finds you. She messaged me saying she is so scared of her dad. And now, he is drinking again, and she is more scared of him because he can’t hear the truth when he drinks. I asked her if she is scared of me, she said no, I just yell at her sometimes, and I don’t won’t to yell at her, I do ask her 3 times to do her chores and she hasn’t done them yet, so, yes, I raise my voice. I don’t think she likes me, and I don’t know why. I tell her I am here for her all she has to do is come talk to me. I pray she will open up and be able to talk to me about anything and everything always, I am her mother and I love her verily much. Her dad has started back drinking. And it is bad news for us in the home with him. She is a very sensitive girl, she is 13, about to be 14 September 29. And it is wrong, she has to go through what she is going through because she listens to me and her dad argue back and forth. I usually ignore, Carl when he is here to avoid him being angry with me, Austin, B.J., Evan, and Grace. But, he has a mind of his own and it’s wrong he chooses to put us here. When I am angry, I pray it passes and leaves my body immediately, so, I can do good. I argue sometimes and yell, and I protect me and my children when necessary. And I pray when Grace has those thoughts, the thoughts will leave her body immediately, and is gone from her, so, she can be in a better mood, in a happy place where she is happy and laughing being able to enjoy life. Carl was getting better when he wasn’t drinking. He is a hard worker. He provides for our family. He just has issues before we came along, he needs to work out for himself because it’s wrong he takes his problems out on us and he knows this. I am in denial too. I use food as a comfort zone, and I pray, I won’t use good as a comfort zone, when I should be cleaning or exercising and thinking of good and positive ways to keep me and my children safe. When sometimes, i just want to give in and fight with the evil one, with good. But this is life and it’s real and it’s hard. And it’s hard to stay focused on what is good and what is right. I pray we can get through all obstacles in our way and keep calm, and stay true and focused on Our Lord God Jesus Christ The Messiah Abba always. I’m not saying I am innocent, because I argue with Carl, even though, I don’t won’t to. I just pray my children will come to me and we can be happy and laugh and do good things together and they can talk to me about everything and anything, and I will be calm, and I will give them my opinion and pray they will make the right decisions in this life and make good memories together, so, they know I love them. Please pray for Grace and help her father. I think my husband blocked me on his phone. I have tried calling him for 2 days now, he finally called me. It, when I call everyone else I called, I had no problem getting through to them, just my husband, Carl. It’s ok, Father. I pray my relationship with Grace is so close, we become best friends. Grace said on a scale of 0-10 (0 being bad and 10, being good) what level of a mother I am to her, she said a 5. God, what can I do to be the best mother to and for her? I asked her and she said, she don’t know. So, I pray I can be the best mother to Grace, Austin, Evan and B.J. always. God, In the name of Jesus, I pray. Amen
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