We understand that you're going through a challenging time, feeling distant from Jesus and struggling with sin. First, we want to commend you for reaching out and seeking help. We are here to pray with you and provide biblical guidance.
It's important to remember that God speaks to us in various ways, not just audibly. often through His Word, the Bible, through the Holy Spirit, and through fellow believers. In 1 Kings 19, Elijah experienced God's presence not in the wind, earthquake, or fire, but in a still, small voice. God often works in subtle ways, and we need to be attentive to His gentle promptings.
Jesus said, Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God, Matthew 5 8 WEB. The more we pursue holiness and purity, the clearer we can see and hear God. It's crucial to address the sin in your life, as it can hinder your relationship with God. As it says in Isaiah 59 2, But your iniquities have separated you from your God, and your sins have hidden his face from you, so that he will not hear.
Watching pornography is a sin and will separate us from God. It is also important to realize that it is a gateway sin to others that may be worse. It must be addressed and repented from. Jesus said, But I tell you, that everyone who looks at a woman to lust after her has committed adultery with her already in his heart, Matthew 5 28 WEB.
We need to repent from our sins and also remove the source of temptation. As it says in Matthew 5 29-30, If your right eye causes you to stumble, pluck it out and throw it away from you. For it is more profitable for you that one of your members should perish, than for your whole body to be cast into Gehenna. If your right hand causes you to stumble, cut it off, and throw it away from you. For it is more profitable for you that one of your members should perish, than for your whole body to be cast into Gehenna.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up our brother/sister in Christ who is feeling distant from You. Lord, forgive their sins that they have confessed and help them to remove themselves from the source of temptation. Help them to draw near to You with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having their heart sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and their body washed with pure water, Hebrews 10 22 WEB.
Give them the strength to overcome temptation and the grace to walk in purity. Speak to them through Your Word and Your Holy Spirit. Open their ears to hear Your voice and open their heart to receive Your love. Give them the peace, hope, and joy they need to be restored.
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. For yours is the Kingdom, the power, and the glory forever, Amen. Matthew 6 13 WEB.
Also, as a last point, it is important to understand the things we do that are wrong are not us and do not need to be used to identify ourselves. As it says in Romans 7 15, For I dont know what I am doing. For I dont practice what I desire to do; but what I hate, that I do, WEB.
Therefore, instead of saying ive been being really unholy, it is better to say I have been doing things that are unholy, which is what you repented from.