Typhlysso
Disciple of Prayer
Praise the Lord This is Seabal Dias here seeking your help and assistance I'll tell you the situation, please help me get through it with a positive response There is this boy named Olvito Vaz with whom I've been in love for past 13-14 years but that time it was just one sided love (only from my side) but after corona he came to me and proposed to me and since then we were in a committed relationship.....when we were in relation I always used to fight with him for every small thing and always blamed his family due to a very big misunderstanding....I used to think his family doesn't like me which was actually a misunderstanding and he always used to tell me not to speak anything against his family without knowing the truth but I had my ego and my attitude but when I came to know the truth I was so embarrassed and ashamed of my ownself....now I realised my mistakes and I honestly want to correct them with a genuine sincere heart.........I apologized to him and his family......his family understood me..... We were supposed to be getting married this year but now he's refusing to get married saying that I won't take care of his family..... Pastor I've realised my mistakes and I honestly want to correct them and want to treat his family well with love and care but this 1 is not ready to forgive me..... Pastor I just want 1 chance to correct my mistakes and live happily with his family.....I just want him to forgive me 1 last time and give me 1 last chance to be with his family I just can't understand how to convince him to give me 1 last chance I've been struggling and overburdened with that guilt....I just want him to forgive me 1 last time.... pastor what should I do to gain that forgiveness? I genuinely love him and want him back somehow so that this time I can give him all the love care and respect that he deserves The thing is, starting there was lot of love among us but because of my misunderstandings and my stupidity now he changed his mind....based on my past mistakes and my negative reactions, now he has created a negative impression about me in his mind that I won't treat his family well.....I just don't understand now how to tell him that I admit each and every mistake of mine I've realised how much wrong I was and sincerely want to repent for forgiveness and ask for another chance to correct all my mistakes and live with them happily....I want all obstacles misunderstandings and other negative things that are there on our path to be removed in Jesus's name and our path be cleared so that we can walk towards each other and reconcile......it's been 7 months now I'm struggling to convince him..... sometimes I feel like am I really that bad that even God doesn't want to forgive me and give me another chance?