First of all, it takes sooo much strength and self-worth to break free from an abusive situation that has been going on for that long. Especially, all the brainwash and lies you've been told. That alone is a miracle. God is already moving through you, and he will continue to.
You remind me of this verse,
Isaiah 40:31
But those that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
God sees you as precious, God sees you as a masterpiece, and he would NOT want you to be treated as anything less, nor see yourself as anything less. When you can't find yourself, read what God says about you and remember what is true, you are a child of the most high God.
Look here,
John 8:31-32
Then Jesus said to those Jews who believed Him, โIf you abide in My word, you are My disciples indeed. 32 And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.
Remember, Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 "For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven.
I pray that God will use any past mistakes you and your partner made to shape you into the people that He wants you to be.
Do not let the past define, let it shape you.
Do not fear to let go because God is always reaching out to hold you.
Isaiah 41:13 For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you
See again,
Isaiah 46:4 I will be your God throughout your lifetime โ until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you.
I will pray for the person who hurt you in this way will come to know the love of God and treat others as our heavenly father treats us. Also, that he can be set free from this destructive and ungodly behavior.
God never gives up on us, so let us not give up on praying for each other.