Anonymous
Beloved of All
Just asking for prayers with my new job as a nurse. For years I've felt it's not for me, for years I told myself I'm too dumb, too anxious for the job even if I studied 4 years for it and even passed the licensure exam. Yes, I have been my worst enemy.
The thing is, I have been bullied for a while in nursing school because my mom's a teacher there, and her co workers (my teachers) compare me to her. They also associate me with my uncle who's also a skilled doctor. They kind of.. already shut me down as someone incompetent even though deep in my heart i know I'm not. I'm just naive with my head in the clouds.
Anyway, I've just been praying about it for a while and I've felt God's calling in taking the job. I might have a mission there but I'm not sure yet.
So here I am, but already I'm bombarded with spiritual warfare. I'm annoyed (I have a short fuse) with my coworkers who don't understand my boundaries, annoyed with the label ''you're your mom's daughter!"(and some try to get on my case in their benefit but I shut them down, respectfully). In, and i'm quite anxious if i might kill or hurt a patient. The fact that I'm standing up for myself and actually making a true effort for myself and not for others is making me nervous because I've always put others first before my needs.
Yeah these are irrational fears and thoughts. I am reading the Lord's word and I listen to worship music but the anxiety and the heaviness in my chest is a lot to bear. I have this facade of being strong but I literally am scared on what will happen in the future. I am a child of God, and I know God's got me. But I just need to learn how to be calm and rational and have the strongest faith in the Lord. So yeah. Please pray for me. My peace of mind. And the safety of my family. Thanks!
The thing is, I have been bullied for a while in nursing school because my mom's a teacher there, and her co workers (my teachers) compare me to her. They also associate me with my uncle who's also a skilled doctor. They kind of.. already shut me down as someone incompetent even though deep in my heart i know I'm not. I'm just naive with my head in the clouds.
Anyway, I've just been praying about it for a while and I've felt God's calling in taking the job. I might have a mission there but I'm not sure yet.
So here I am, but already I'm bombarded with spiritual warfare. I'm annoyed (I have a short fuse) with my coworkers who don't understand my boundaries, annoyed with the label ''you're your mom's daughter!"(and some try to get on my case in their benefit but I shut them down, respectfully). In, and i'm quite anxious if i might kill or hurt a patient. The fact that I'm standing up for myself and actually making a true effort for myself and not for others is making me nervous because I've always put others first before my needs.
Yeah these are irrational fears and thoughts. I am reading the Lord's word and I listen to worship music but the anxiety and the heaviness in my chest is a lot to bear. I have this facade of being strong but I literally am scared on what will happen in the future. I am a child of God, and I know God's got me. But I just need to learn how to be calm and rational and have the strongest faith in the Lord. So yeah. Please pray for me. My peace of mind. And the safety of my family. Thanks!