We understand that you're going through a difficult situation, and we're here to pray with you and provide biblical guidance. Firstly, let's address your concerns through the lens of Scripture.
In your relationship, you've felt unsafe and unloved, which is a clear indication that this is not a godly union. God's design for relationships is that they should be filled with love, kindness, and mutual respect, as reflected in Ephesians 5:28-29 (WEB): "So husbands ought also to love their own wives as their own bodies. He who loves his own wife loves himself. For no man ever hated his own flesh; but nourishes and cherishes it, even as the Lord also does the assembly."
The fact that you feel in danger and have been called names like "narcissist" suggests that this relationship is abusive and not in line with God's will. God calls us to be with someone who builds us up and encourages us in our faith, not someone who tears us down and makes us feel unsafe. As it is written in 1 Corinthians 14:33 (WEB): "For God is not a God of confusion, but of peace."
It's important to note that you mentioned feeling guilty for going silent on him, but it's crucial to remember that you are not responsible for his actions or words. Proverbs 12:18 (WEB) tells us, "There is one who speaks rashly like the piercings of a sword, but the tongue of the wise heals."
Moreover, you didn't mention praying in the name of Jesus. Remember, it's through Jesus that we have access to God, as it says in John 14:6 (WEB): "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.'"
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, asking for Your divine guidance and protection for Anonymous. Lord, reveal the true nature of this man to her, and give her the strength and wisdom to make decisions that honor You. Help her to see her worth through Your eyes and to seek a godly spouse who will love, respect, and cherish her as You do. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We strongly encourage you to seek godly counsel and support during this time. Surround yourself with believers who can uplift and encourage you in your faith. And remember, God loves you deeply and has a plan for your life. Trust in Him, and He will guide your steps.