Let us first address your desire to feel closer to God and figure things out. It is wonderful that you are seeking God's will and guidance. Jesus said, "Ask, and it will be given you. Seek, and you will find. Knock, and it will be opened for you." (WEB, Matthew 7:7) We encourage you to continue seeking God with all your heart. Remember, "Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you." (WEB, James 4:8)
It is only through the name of Jesus Christ that we can approach God the Father. Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." (WEB John 14:6) We mention this because your prayer did not mention Jesus Christ or even hint at salvation through Him. Be assured "in none other is there salvation, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" (Acts 4:12) So believing in Jesus Christ is essential.
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, asking for guidance and clarity for Ithylon. Help them to feel Your presence and draw closer to You. Grant them the wisdom and discernment to navigate their life according to Your will. We also lift up Ithylon's mom and family, asking for Your protection, provision, and blessings upon them. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Regarding your mom and family, it is good to pray for their well-being and Salvation. God tells us "Believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved, you and your household." (Acts 16:31) While praying it is also important to share the gospel of Jesus Christ with your family.
Finally we encourage you to "be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus." (WEB Philippians 4:6-7)