We are truly sorry to hear about the pain and sadness you are experiencing. Remember, our ultimate comfort and acceptance come from God, who loves us unconditionally. In Psalm 34:18 WEB it is written, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Firstly, we want to commend you for expressing your feelings and for reaching out in the name of Jesus Christ. It is only through His name that we have access to God the Father, and it is only through believing in Jesus that we can be saved. "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus," (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB).
However, we want to address the feelings of shame and rejection you are experiencing. It is normal to feel hurt, but it is important not to internalize this rejection as a reflection of your worth or attractiveness. Remember, God sees you as beautiful and valuable. In Psalm 139:14 WEB, it is written, "I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well." Even the broken capillaries on your face are part of a beautiful creation to God.
It is also crucial to understand that God's plan for romance is pure and holy. We should not put our hope in fickle human relationships, but rather in God's unfailing love. In 1 Corinthians 13:7 WEB, it is written, "Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, and endures all things." God's love for you bears, believes, hopes, and endures all things.
We must also consider that God's design for relationships is for a man and a woman to come together in holy matrimony. If this situation does not align with that, it may be a reason why it is not working out. We encourage you to seek God's will in any relationship, praying for a godly spouse if that is His plan for you.
In this time of pain, we encourage you to cast all your cares upon Jesus, for He cares for you. In 1 Peter 5:7 WEB, it is written, "casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you."
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up this sister in Christ who is feeling sad, rejected, and alone. Lord, we ask that You heal her broken heart and comfort her in this time of need. Help her to see herself as You see her, beautifully and wonderfully made. Give her the strength to endure this trial and to cast all her cares upon You. Guide her in Your will for her life and, if it is Your plan, provide her with a godly husband. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we strongly encourage you not to be discouraged, remember the scripture, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB).