Quenulon
Prayer Warrior
I broke down in tears today because I was so overwhelmed and upset. I asked God to heal me of everything I had gone through and God has done bit by bit. He has opened my eyes to all of the abuse I went through and healed my traumatised mind. I've had abuse from all angles. I want to ask for prayers for my mother. I have come to a realisation that I have a mother wound. My mother is the most difficult person to talk to in my life. She takes things very personally and can get nasty if I express my emotions or become upset with her if she has done something wrong. The bible says honour your family but , this is abuse. She is emotionally abusive. I have felt I could never be open with her about my feelings. She also didn't respond well to be being abused by a man she swept it under the rug and showed little to no understanding whatsoever. I would appreciate this healing from this and today I cried as I realised the conversations I wanted to have with her will never happen. This has left me broken and sad. Nevertheless I want to be free from it. I am not a victim of what happened and I am an adult who is ready to go and live life. I pray to move on and be free from my parents house. I have moved in and out of their home for years. This cycle needs to end now. I pray this cycle breaks in the name of Jesus. I want to be a good mum for my family and a good wife. I hold my mother up in prayer for intense healing and repentance. In Jesus name. . Thank you Jesus for being there for me today because honestly the only person I want is you right now. I need you every single day and minute. Please bring me peace. I want to be a mother and have a family. I want a husband. God has shown me him and I know who he is. It is just a matter of time. I pray for patience, love , understanding, compassion, to learn his language Arabic reasonably quicky and pray over his life and protection. I pray for my confidence and self esteem to grow. I pray for my full healing and letting go. I pray for my health and safety and purpose in life. In the name of Jesus help me let go for good.