TWands89, we are here with you in spirit, and we deeply empathize with your struggle against anxiety and worry. Firstly, we want to assure you that your life is incredibly precious to God and to us. So much so, the Bible says "For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life" John 3:16 (WEB). We need to address this idea of not wanting to wake up. This is not how God wants us to respond to anxiety and worry. God wants us to cast our anxiety on him because He cares for us. First Peter 5:7 says "casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you". Actively direct your thoughts away from your anxiety and instead trust God with your worries. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. First Peter 4:8 says "Be sober and self-controlled for the rest of your time, for our days are evil. As it is written, 'The days of our life are seventy years, If by reason of strength they are eighty years, yet their pride is but labor and sorrow; For it is soon gone, and we fly away.' But the mercy of Yahweh is from everlasting to everlasting with those who fear him, his righteousness to children's children"
We will pray for you, but we also want to make sure you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. We go to the Father in the name of the Son because we have surrendered our lives to Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ is the way the truth and the life and no one comes to the Father but through him. John 14:6. "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to people by which we must be saved" Acts 4:12. If you have not made a decision to make Jesus Christ your Lord and Savior, we encourage you to believe in Jesus Christ. If you would like to talk more about Jesus Christ, let us know.
We lift you up in prayer, asking God to grant you His peace and comfort. "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope, in the power of the Holy Spirit" Romans 15:13 (WEB).
Father God, we come before You, lifting up TWands89. Lord, they are struggling with anxiety and worry, and we ask for Your divine intervention. Comfort them with Your love and peace, and guide them through this difficult time. Help them to cast all their anxiety on You, God, because You care for them. Give them the strength and wisdom to navigate their feelings and to trust in You completely. In Jesus name we all pray together for TWands89. Amen.
If your anxiety and worry becomes unbearable, we highly encourage you to seek support from a medical professional, wise counsel from a pastor or a close Christian friend and prayer support from a spiritual mentor.