Nochathen
Disciple of Prayer
Please I need you to pray for me against every yoke of manipulation by the enemy. I’ve found myself making certain decisions which I know for sure that it wasn’t God’s plan for me. I looked at my family and it was then that I realised that it was a family pattern, especially in the romantic and marital aspect. I had a boyfriend whom we were so happy together, he was the best person I’ve ever met and he compliments me so much, and vice versa, we dated for 13 months and we were literally each other’s best friends. I woke up one day last year and i suddenly started feeling this nudge to end everything without any reasonable reason. I did, he was really hurt, he cried, begged, fell sick, almost started doing drugs. While he was begging me, I never for once changed my mind, although I was hurt and I’d cry sometimes. He kept begging over and again and I just kept pushing him away. Fast forward to about 3 months ago (a year after the breakup), I just realised what I had done, everything hit me like a brick. I started missing him and feeling his absence, everything started replaying as if it was just days ago. I couldn’t even account for anything I did for the past one year, it was more like my life was a blur. I reached out to him, we got texting and he told me that he moved on with someone else already. I’ve been miserable ever since because I still really love him. I don’t know how my eyes have been blind to that your how I never ever realised that I still loved him this much. I can’t even point out a reason for breaking up with him in the first place, we planned to get married and had a lot planned for the future, what went wrong?. I sat down and thought about it long and hard, it was then that I realised that it doesn’t look ordinary. I’ve been sick, no appetite, little or no sleep, the guilt is eating me up and I’ve been beating myself up fr. I need your prayers to navigate through all this, I don’t know what to do, I don’t know where to go from here. I need prayers to break free from the enemies’ captivity and against every blockage and plague. I also pray for total restoration of everything I have lost over the last one year.