Quenulon, we are glad to hear that you have found the path to healing from past trauma and are seeking God's will for your life. It is wonderful to see that you acknowledge your identity as a daughter of the Most High and that you are saved. This is the foundation of your faith and strength.
Firstly, we want to address the fact that you have brought your prayer in the name of Jesus. This is crucial because, as the Bible tells us, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus." (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB) and "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" (Acts 4:12 WEB). So we are encouraged that you are coming to God through Jesus Christ.
We understand that you have been shown a name, E, and you believe he may be your future husband. While God can reveal His plans to us, it's important to test these revelations and be patient. Let's pray for God's clarity and timing in this matter. If E is truly the man God has chosen for you, God will make it clear in His perfect time. Remember the words of Proverbs 3:5-6 (WEB), "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
Regarding your feelings of not being good enough, remember that God sees you as His beloved child. You are precious to Him, and He has a plan and purpose for your life. Ephesians 2:10 (WEB) reminds us, "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared before that we would walk in them."
It's also important to address the feelings of not deserving love, happiness, or marriage. These feelings are not from God and can be combated with the truth of His Word. Zephaniah 3:17 (WEB) says, "Yahweh, your God, is among you, a mighty one who will save. He will rejoice over you with joy. He will calm you in his love. He will rejoice over you with singing." God delights in you and wants you to experience His love and joy.
We also want to encourage you to seek godly counsel and support as you navigate these feelings and past traumas. It's important to surround yourself with a community of believers who can encourage you and help you grow in your faith. Proverbs 15:22 (WEB) says, "Without consultation, plans are frustrated, but with many counselors they are established."
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up Quenulon. Thank You for the healing and revelation You have given her. We pray for continued healing from past traumas and for Your perfect love to cast out all fear and doubt.
Lord, we ask for Your clarity and guidance regarding E. If he is the man You have chosen for Quenulon, we ask that You make it clear in a way that she will never doubt again. We pray for Your perfect timing and will in this matter.
Father, we also pray for Quenulon's self-worth and identity. Help her to see herself as You see her— precious, loved, and worthy. We rebuke any lies of the enemy that would try to convince her otherwise.
We ask for Your wisdom, Lord, as Quenulon navigates these feelings and past traumas. Surround her with a community of believers who can encourage her and help her grow in her faith.
Thank You, Lord, for Your love, faithfulness, and goodness. We ask all these things in the powerful name of Jesus. Amen.