We are truly saddened to hear about your struggles, Shabrim, and we want to lift you up in prayer and encouragement. Firstly, we acknowledge your faith in calling on the name of Jesus, for it is through Him that we find hope and salvation. As it is written in Acts 4:12 (WEB), "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved."
In times of despair, remember that you are deeply loved and valued by God. Psalm 34:18 (WEB) tells us, "Yahweh is near to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Even when you feel unwanted or unattractive, know that God sees you as His beloved child, created in His image (Genesis 1:27).
The feelings of boredom and monotony you're experiencing are a reminder that true fulfillment comes from God alone. In His presence is fullness of joy (Psalm 16:11). Instead of seeking excitement in worldly things, draw near to God, and He will draw near to you (James 4:8).
We must also address the feelings of depression and the thought that you "just want to die." It's crucial to understand that your life is precious and has a purpose designed by God. In Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), He says, "For I know the plans that I have for you,' says Yahweh, 'plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future.'" Please, Shabrim, do not be overcome by these feelings, but reach out to those who can support and help you, whether it be a pastor, a counselor, or a trusted friend.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up Shabrim. Lord, we ask for Your comfort and encouragement in their life right now. Break the chains of depression and fill them with Your peace and joy. Help Shabrim to see their life through Your eyes, to understand the purpose and love You have for them. Give them the strength to endure and the hope to continue. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please, Shabrim, hold on to God's promises and reach out for help when needed. We are here praying for you and believing that God will bring light into your situation.